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man..i'm feeling horrible...i'm down with flu again...and the fact that he is going off for hong kong tmr doesn't make things better...although he would only be gone for the weekend...but then it's hard for u guys to understand the lonely feeling..it's almost empty...horrible..and again,i'm procrastinating.not literally,just dun have the motivation in me.good news though.i have completed my canvas painting for o levels!! but then u may nvr noe when the teacher wants me to touch up here and there again..dis days hasn't been very well for me.lots of bad things happen which upsets the balance of my mood..but i noe it will b over soon.time always heals all wounds.i believe in this.school hasn't been gd,things with him have been on the on and off basis..everything just isn't right.but i'm not abt to give up.not yet.not ever...i'll make sure i set things right once and for all.and live happily ever after...haha...trying to keep a good and positive attitude..i'm not gona breakdown and give up.never.anyway,i didn't manage to complete me chem test today.but well...i guess it's ok.cuz i totally have no idea wad the question wants in the first place.haha.well,hui xin has offered me help in chem.there's still hope.and i noe he will help me too.so there is lots of hope.haha.ok..i noe i ain't really talking right.i guess it's just me right now.i dono wad i'm feeling right now actually.sad,stress over all the hw,tests,yet relieve that i finally finish my o level art.and happy that many friends are coming for service tmr.well...mixed feelings that cannot be put into words...i just want dis freaking week to pass...my medicine doesn'tmake me any better as well.it leaves this bitter taste in my mouth for the hwole day that no matter wad i eat the bitterness nvr goes away.it's antibiotics and i have to finish the freaking course.how bad can dis be...God..please help me...i need You....haiz...