wohohoho sch has started! video and design trends and issues.
assignments given on the first day...video assignment which is to be done in 2 days.design trends submission deadline at 11.59pm every night.janice is totally not gona have any life dis month cuz she can't even go out anymore after school due to submisson deadline of design trends! BAWLS.
and psycho exam coming next week.driving theory test in 2 days' time.shalalalala..and not forgetting work at the childcare after sch.
janice is a juggler of many things.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
i hate the way i think.i wonder wads wrong with me, or my brain, or the stupid way i see the world. wads the use of me talking so much abt personal well being when i am still as screwed up? Annie is right.words are cheap.i should just shut up and stop going on abt my sob stories and just do something prove that i can change to be a better person.
childcare today was horrible.the twins sprayed water onto my face and shirt and i was so so so so engraged i dragged them to the office, barefooted too, becuz dey refused to wear their shoes.after dat i went back to the classroom, mood a little better as 2 problem kids gone. then i said it's time for english yet one of them still defy me.still being rude to me.i scolded him and he scolded me back.saying i am shen jing bing (crazy). i was so damn enraged..but after dat i calmed down and managed to get them to sit at their seats.and managed to give them a comprehension to do.thank God for dat.sometimes just feel so drained of energy by having to deal with those naughty ones but..oh wells.at the end of the day i always manage to calm down somehow unless i am in a really bad mood.sometimes i go home feeling so down and stressed because of them.sometimes when dey are gd and things run smoothly, lyk dey behave and dey listen to me, i go home feeling happy and accomplished.
sorry chris baby.u always have to put up with my foul moods.and also some of my other stupid nonsense...
ytd i went crazy.well, it started with gastric pains halfway during work..dono y i had gastric pains.i ate b4 i went out..but anyway, by the end of the day i was already feeling so hungry and painful dat i went to a bakery shop and bought $7.40 worth of tarts,cakes,donuts and muffins.hahaha...i was lyk an animal, putting wadever delicious thing i see onto the bread tray, not caring abt the cost.all dat was on my mind was to satisfy those hunger pangs and gastric pain.
my gastric didn't really improve after dat though.it lasted through the night and only got well today.my gastric just sux.
i wana go overseas.i enjoy travelling.it's been years since i last sat in an airplane.i wana go overseas! i wana eat airplane food, go airplane toilet.oh do u noe, i have nvr been to an airplane toilet for all the times i sat in an airplane.lol.and i wana play airplane games, watch airplane movies.and i wana watch the clouds, and see the world below me when the airplane lift off...I WANA GO OVERSEAS!!!!!
Asience ROX!! do u all noe wads that? it's a new shampoo from japan,made for asian hair! i jsut used it today.my hair is so soft and smooth right now.and u all noe my hair has always been dry due to the dono how many hundred times i rebonded my hair...ok la 8 times only la not hundered.lol.actually there's one shampoo dats also very gd on my hair and dats L'Oreal Pearl Protein.the pink coloured bottle one.it made my hair so soft and healthy.today i can't find the l'oreal one at ntuc so i decidede to try out Acience.no regrets. :D
childcare today was horrible.the twins sprayed water onto my face and shirt and i was so so so so engraged i dragged them to the office, barefooted too, becuz dey refused to wear their shoes.after dat i went back to the classroom, mood a little better as 2 problem kids gone. then i said it's time for english yet one of them still defy me.still being rude to me.i scolded him and he scolded me back.saying i am shen jing bing (crazy). i was so damn enraged..but after dat i calmed down and managed to get them to sit at their seats.and managed to give them a comprehension to do.thank God for dat.sometimes just feel so drained of energy by having to deal with those naughty ones but..oh wells.at the end of the day i always manage to calm down somehow unless i am in a really bad mood.sometimes i go home feeling so down and stressed because of them.sometimes when dey are gd and things run smoothly, lyk dey behave and dey listen to me, i go home feeling happy and accomplished.
sorry chris baby.u always have to put up with my foul moods.and also some of my other stupid nonsense...
ytd i went crazy.well, it started with gastric pains halfway during work..dono y i had gastric pains.i ate b4 i went out..but anyway, by the end of the day i was already feeling so hungry and painful dat i went to a bakery shop and bought $7.40 worth of tarts,cakes,donuts and muffins.hahaha...i was lyk an animal, putting wadever delicious thing i see onto the bread tray, not caring abt the cost.all dat was on my mind was to satisfy those hunger pangs and gastric pain.
my gastric didn't really improve after dat though.it lasted through the night and only got well today.my gastric just sux.
i wana go overseas.i enjoy travelling.it's been years since i last sat in an airplane.i wana go overseas! i wana eat airplane food, go airplane toilet.oh do u noe, i have nvr been to an airplane toilet for all the times i sat in an airplane.lol.and i wana play airplane games, watch airplane movies.and i wana watch the clouds, and see the world below me when the airplane lift off...I WANA GO OVERSEAS!!!!!
Asience ROX!! do u all noe wads that? it's a new shampoo from japan,made for asian hair! i jsut used it today.my hair is so soft and smooth right now.and u all noe my hair has always been dry due to the dono how many hundred times i rebonded my hair...ok la 8 times only la not hundered.lol.actually there's one shampoo dats also very gd on my hair and dats L'Oreal Pearl Protein.the pink coloured bottle one.it made my hair so soft and healthy.today i can't find the l'oreal one at ntuc so i decidede to try out Acience.no regrets. :D
Monday, July 17, 2006
one month break is gona be over soon.gona have my basic driving theory test soon.gona have my psycho written test soon.but yet i am not motivated to study for any of dis at the moment.and i dono y i have lost all the motivation.probably becuz i am just so sick and tired of always having to worry abt whether have i studied enough.i just wana get away from all the burdens for awhile.i haven't touched my psycho textbook for 3 days already and i haven't look at my driving theory book for abt a week.i have been on a long procrastination trip and i am enjoying every single moment of it.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
:)
lack of updates recently...got tonnes of pics too but then i m not in the mood to post them up..sp u just have to bear with the words and use ur imagination..
went to malaysia recently with baby and his SecCom company..it was fun.we went to visit the ostrich farm and it was super cool! the ostrich egg is darn huge! lyk the size of a baby's head? yeh ard there.and the egg white is ard 70% and the yolk is only 30%.the guy had to DRILL thu the egg shell cuz its 2mm thick, so as to get into the egg..and when the egg white started to flow out i tot it was nvr gona stop cuz its so much egg white!!! and then after dat the egg yolk slowly flowed out and it was only a small portion.and the man said ostrich eggs are gd cuz dey are low in cholestrol and high in protien.and we took pics with ostriches and touched the ostriches...ahahha...it was fun.
then we went to the fruit farm.oh and i finally saw the plant of the dragon fruit.look lyk long cactuses! haha..without thorns. :) we bought red flesh dragon fruits home.very nice.sweeter than the grey flesh ones.and we had lots of tropical fruits la..but i skipped the jackfruits cuz i hate jackfruits.and thank God there's no durian! LOL.
then we had seafood.omg.we had seafood for lunch and seafood for dinner.all the calories!! argh.lol.fat already.
we shopped at Jusco...didnt really have much time to shop.i only got myself 2 Mango tops and baby got himself 2 Topman tops..and we just loaded our shopping carts with snacks,snacks,and more snacks,and chewing gum, and we bought 6 dunkin donuts! lol.dunkin donuts rox.spore dun have it tho.gahs.
i wished the day nvr ended.coming back to spore is so not fun! back to normal life again! :(
and dats the trip to malaysia..i love it so much...enabled me to relax and not think abt work and sch stuff.. :) especially when it's spent with him.it was fun.
visited IMH 2 days ago..it was an interesting trip.we visited the patients...i was rather scared cuz it's lyk a bunch of old men come and then try to talk to u,or stare super hard at u,or are so happy dey wana shake ur hands and bring u to their corners to play...i was scared and also disappointed with my reaction towards them.before the trip i told myself if the patients talk to me i must talk to them nicely.but then my reaction turned out to be so negative dat i am so ashamed of myself.cuz dis patients are very poor thing.most of them abandoned by their families cuz due to their pyshological problems,it's hard to take care of them.and so dey have been staying in IMH for years.sad for them...and another thing abt IMH is dat when we were having out "tour" in the ward we could hear ppl screaming hysterically somewhere in the vacinity...lol..rather scary to us..
went swimming at baby's country club yesterday and had bbq at yoyo's condo with the cell.ate alot,felt fat and bloated and tired...
having some issues with myself.i have changed alot.can't say i lyk dis change in me but yet i dun really mind dis change oso..there are still issues i have yet to settle too..issues i hope wun b pushed away and suppressed but will b able to b solved soon...i noe it needs time..it needs patience..it needs quite a gd deal of waiting..of cooling down, of calming down.but i believe all dis anxiety causing process is gona b worth it in the end.becuz,i am not gona let dis end just lyk dat.no baby, never.
i dono when dis period of uncertainty will end..i hope it will end soon.and i dun mean to hurt anyone in the process of my self-doubts and intuitions.i just had to voice out my fears.i can't possible swallow all my fears and pretend there is nth when i clearly feel uncertain and afraid.i noe it might sound illogical, but maybe dats just me,my personality,always so jumpy,so nervous,so uncertain.and if such a personality is gona hurt the ppl i love the most then i am willing to change it.i just am not willing to lose the ppl i love the most.the ppl hu mean so much to me.
changes are the only constant thing in life and i just have to accept it.yes i am afraid of changes.becuz it brings abt uncertainties, doubts, maybe even paranoia.but, i just have to accept the fact that not all change is bad.changes can be good things.and i just have to relax and not think so much,and not let my mind wonder off to the point that i turn hysteric and start to hurt the person i love.
i shall just relax,and trust God for everything.
went to malaysia recently with baby and his SecCom company..it was fun.we went to visit the ostrich farm and it was super cool! the ostrich egg is darn huge! lyk the size of a baby's head? yeh ard there.and the egg white is ard 70% and the yolk is only 30%.the guy had to DRILL thu the egg shell cuz its 2mm thick, so as to get into the egg..and when the egg white started to flow out i tot it was nvr gona stop cuz its so much egg white!!! and then after dat the egg yolk slowly flowed out and it was only a small portion.and the man said ostrich eggs are gd cuz dey are low in cholestrol and high in protien.and we took pics with ostriches and touched the ostriches...ahahha...it was fun.
then we went to the fruit farm.oh and i finally saw the plant of the dragon fruit.look lyk long cactuses! haha..without thorns. :) we bought red flesh dragon fruits home.very nice.sweeter than the grey flesh ones.and we had lots of tropical fruits la..but i skipped the jackfruits cuz i hate jackfruits.and thank God there's no durian! LOL.
then we had seafood.omg.we had seafood for lunch and seafood for dinner.all the calories!! argh.lol.fat already.
we shopped at Jusco...didnt really have much time to shop.i only got myself 2 Mango tops and baby got himself 2 Topman tops..and we just loaded our shopping carts with snacks,snacks,and more snacks,and chewing gum, and we bought 6 dunkin donuts! lol.dunkin donuts rox.spore dun have it tho.gahs.
i wished the day nvr ended.coming back to spore is so not fun! back to normal life again! :(
and dats the trip to malaysia..i love it so much...enabled me to relax and not think abt work and sch stuff.. :) especially when it's spent with him.it was fun.
visited IMH 2 days ago..it was an interesting trip.we visited the patients...i was rather scared cuz it's lyk a bunch of old men come and then try to talk to u,or stare super hard at u,or are so happy dey wana shake ur hands and bring u to their corners to play...i was scared and also disappointed with my reaction towards them.before the trip i told myself if the patients talk to me i must talk to them nicely.but then my reaction turned out to be so negative dat i am so ashamed of myself.cuz dis patients are very poor thing.most of them abandoned by their families cuz due to their pyshological problems,it's hard to take care of them.and so dey have been staying in IMH for years.sad for them...and another thing abt IMH is dat when we were having out "tour" in the ward we could hear ppl screaming hysterically somewhere in the vacinity...lol..rather scary to us..
went swimming at baby's country club yesterday and had bbq at yoyo's condo with the cell.ate alot,felt fat and bloated and tired...
having some issues with myself.i have changed alot.can't say i lyk dis change in me but yet i dun really mind dis change oso..there are still issues i have yet to settle too..issues i hope wun b pushed away and suppressed but will b able to b solved soon...i noe it needs time..it needs patience..it needs quite a gd deal of waiting..of cooling down, of calming down.but i believe all dis anxiety causing process is gona b worth it in the end.becuz,i am not gona let dis end just lyk dat.no baby, never.
i dono when dis period of uncertainty will end..i hope it will end soon.and i dun mean to hurt anyone in the process of my self-doubts and intuitions.i just had to voice out my fears.i can't possible swallow all my fears and pretend there is nth when i clearly feel uncertain and afraid.i noe it might sound illogical, but maybe dats just me,my personality,always so jumpy,so nervous,so uncertain.and if such a personality is gona hurt the ppl i love the most then i am willing to change it.i just am not willing to lose the ppl i love the most.the ppl hu mean so much to me.
changes are the only constant thing in life and i just have to accept it.yes i am afraid of changes.becuz it brings abt uncertainties, doubts, maybe even paranoia.but, i just have to accept the fact that not all change is bad.changes can be good things.and i just have to relax and not think so much,and not let my mind wonder off to the point that i turn hysteric and start to hurt the person i love.
i shall just relax,and trust God for everything.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
solitude
discovered the true love of a teacher...i am starting to like my primary 1 kids alot..even tho dey always make me angry and i have to scold them and punish them, but they also have their cute and adorable side.and even tho i am always very angry with them, i find myself not having the heart to scold them very fiercely..and miraculously, i find myself getting more attached to them and more willing to help out in their class. seriously, i think God put me in this situation to make me learn and realise dat kids can be so lovable no matter how naughty dey are..
and i guess dats God's heart too.no matter how we rebel,forget and disobey Him, He's still always there for us to make sure that no harm comes our way.and no matter how naughty we are, how much we sin, He's always just and willing to forgive us when we confess and apologize and repent.
learnt so much while working at the childcare..definitely an experience worth learning from.i think God put me there to make me realise all the things i mentioned above.
i enjoy teaching them maths, english and chinese, i enjoy bringing them out to the playground to play during their play time..watching them play silly games lyk Colour Catching, Police and theives..lol...and remembering my childhood times when i used to run ard the playground lyk mad playing catching also..
altho dey always fight, but when i tell them to apologise to each other, dey do it. i feel happy when they come to me and wana hold my hand, i feel happy when dey want me to sit beside them. i feel happy when dey tell me silly things and make me laugh.
hahaha....all this stuffs aside, i am a gd ger today becuz i finished everything i ahve to do for psycho this week.everything.lol.i am free from assignments for this week.
WOOSH.
and i guess dats God's heart too.no matter how we rebel,forget and disobey Him, He's still always there for us to make sure that no harm comes our way.and no matter how naughty we are, how much we sin, He's always just and willing to forgive us when we confess and apologize and repent.
learnt so much while working at the childcare..definitely an experience worth learning from.i think God put me there to make me realise all the things i mentioned above.
i enjoy teaching them maths, english and chinese, i enjoy bringing them out to the playground to play during their play time..watching them play silly games lyk Colour Catching, Police and theives..lol...and remembering my childhood times when i used to run ard the playground lyk mad playing catching also..
altho dey always fight, but when i tell them to apologise to each other, dey do it. i feel happy when they come to me and wana hold my hand, i feel happy when dey want me to sit beside them. i feel happy when dey tell me silly things and make me laugh.
hahaha....all this stuffs aside, i am a gd ger today becuz i finished everything i ahve to do for psycho this week.everything.lol.i am free from assignments for this week.
WOOSH.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
children, childcare, children, childcare
WOOSH.my laptop is back from the hospital! say hello to me! lolol...
my first week working in Lutheran Childcare Centre...it's LOADS of fun...the nursery kids ARE SO DAMN CUTE AHH!!!!! so cute i think im turning into a pedophile! seeing them everyday is just seeing a bundle of pure joy!! woooo~~~ XD XD XD XD XD wish i can bring them home everyday....
i also had to help out at the studentcare...the pri 1 class.my goodness.dey are little monsters.climbing windows, running, fighting, screaming, shouting, being so rowdy...first 2 days i went home feeling so stressed because of them.i can't seem to control them at all!! then after dat i slowly got used to it and slowly learned how to deal with such monsters...these are kids dat hui xin will nvr like. LOL. hui xin u will noe wad im talking abt...
in 2 months time i will be helping out more in the nursery side.I MUST PERSERVERE!!! cuz i just love the nursery kids so so so much..looking forward where i can spend more time with them.heeeee heeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
things are going ok..ronald seems satisfied with my sketchbook.hopefully my grades will b improved.dis month is free..no modules.so..i shall use the time to work as much as i can so i can earn myself some cash...very happy dat i got such a happening job.it's much better in the previous childcare i worked in..
things to do while free this month (in random order):
study psycho
study basic theory
spend time with him
work
tan
swim
i'm missing u.
my first week working in Lutheran Childcare Centre...it's LOADS of fun...the nursery kids ARE SO DAMN CUTE AHH!!!!! so cute i think im turning into a pedophile! seeing them everyday is just seeing a bundle of pure joy!! woooo~~~ XD XD XD XD XD wish i can bring them home everyday....
i also had to help out at the studentcare...the pri 1 class.my goodness.dey are little monsters.climbing windows, running, fighting, screaming, shouting, being so rowdy...first 2 days i went home feeling so stressed because of them.i can't seem to control them at all!! then after dat i slowly got used to it and slowly learned how to deal with such monsters...these are kids dat hui xin will nvr like. LOL. hui xin u will noe wad im talking abt...
in 2 months time i will be helping out more in the nursery side.I MUST PERSERVERE!!! cuz i just love the nursery kids so so so much..looking forward where i can spend more time with them.heeeee heeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
things are going ok..ronald seems satisfied with my sketchbook.hopefully my grades will b improved.dis month is free..no modules.so..i shall use the time to work as much as i can so i can earn myself some cash...very happy dat i got such a happening job.it's much better in the previous childcare i worked in..
things to do while free this month (in random order):
study psycho
study basic theory
spend time with him
work
tan
swim
i'm missing u.
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