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lack of updates recently...got tonnes of pics too but then i m not in the mood to post them up..sp u just have to bear with the words and use ur imagination..

went to malaysia recently with baby and his SecCom company..it was fun.we went to visit the ostrich farm and it was super cool! the ostrich egg is darn huge! lyk the size of a baby's head? yeh ard there.and the egg white is ard 70% and the yolk is only 30%.the guy had to DRILL thu the egg shell cuz its 2mm thick, so as to get into the egg..and when the egg white started to flow out i tot it was nvr gona stop cuz its so much egg white!!! and then after dat the egg yolk slowly flowed out and it was only a small portion.and the man said ostrich eggs are gd cuz dey are low in cholestrol and high in protien.and we took pics with ostriches and touched the ostriches...ahahha...it was fun.

then we went to the fruit farm.oh and i finally saw the plant of the dragon fruit.look lyk long cactuses! haha..without thorns. :) we bought red flesh dragon fruits home.very nice.sweeter than the grey flesh ones.and we had lots of tropical fruits la..but i skipped the jackfruits cuz i hate jackfruits.and thank God there's no durian! LOL.

then we had seafood.omg.we had seafood for lunch and seafood for dinner.all the calories!! argh.lol.fat already.

we shopped at Jusco...didnt really have much time to shop.i only got myself 2 Mango tops and baby got himself 2 Topman tops..and we just loaded our shopping carts with snacks,snacks,and more snacks,and chewing gum, and we bought 6 dunkin donuts! lol.dunkin donuts rox.spore dun have it tho.gahs.

i wished the day nvr ended.coming back to spore is so not fun! back to normal life again! :(

and dats the trip to malaysia..i love it so much...enabled me to relax and not think abt work and sch stuff.. :) especially when it's spent with him.it was fun.

visited IMH 2 days ago..it was an interesting trip.we visited the patients...i was rather scared cuz it's lyk a bunch of old men come and then try to talk to u,or stare super hard at u,or are so happy dey wana shake ur hands and bring u to their corners to play...i was scared and also disappointed with my reaction towards them.before the trip i told myself if the patients talk to me i must talk to them nicely.but then my reaction turned out to be so negative dat i am so ashamed of myself.cuz dis patients are very poor thing.most of them abandoned by their families cuz due to their pyshological problems,it's hard to take care of them.and so dey have been staying in IMH for years.sad for them...and another thing abt IMH is dat when we were having out "tour" in the ward we could hear ppl screaming hysterically somewhere in the vacinity...lol..rather scary to us..

went swimming at baby's country club yesterday and had bbq at yoyo's condo with the cell.ate alot,felt fat and bloated and tired...

having some issues with myself.i have changed alot.can't say i lyk dis change in me but yet i dun really mind dis change oso..there are still issues i have yet to settle too..issues i hope wun b pushed away and suppressed but will b able to b solved soon...i noe it needs time..it needs patience..it needs quite a gd deal of waiting..of cooling down, of calming down.but i believe all dis anxiety causing process is gona b worth it in the end.becuz,i am not gona let dis end just lyk dat.no baby, never.

i dono when dis period of uncertainty will end..i hope it will end soon.and i dun mean to hurt anyone in the process of my self-doubts and intuitions.i just had to voice out my fears.i can't possible swallow all my fears and pretend there is nth when i clearly feel uncertain and afraid.i noe it might sound illogical, but maybe dats just me,my personality,always so jumpy,so nervous,so uncertain.and if such a personality is gona hurt the ppl i love the most then i am willing to change it.i just am not willing to lose the ppl i love the most.the ppl hu mean so much to me.

changes are the only constant thing in life and i just have to accept it.yes i am afraid of changes.becuz it brings abt uncertainties, doubts, maybe even paranoia.but, i just have to accept the fact that not all change is bad.changes can be good things.and i just have to relax and not think so much,and not let my mind wonder off to the point that i turn hysteric and start to hurt the person i love.

i shall just relax,and trust God for everything.