mixed feelings..

mixed feelings mixed feelings...all i wan is a gd gd slp....hopefully a deep and dreamless slp...i miss those days when i dun have nightmares...been having alot of nightmares and waking up in the middle of the nite.perhaps dis should explain y i dun lyk to slp dis days.once i close my eyes the nightmares begin.

been feeling fatigue...no energy to do anything.sometimes just wana b alone.yeh it feels gd to spend time by myself.there's peace..and there's inspiration..yet sometimes i need the company of ppl ard me too.hmm...

chat with zx on the phone throughout the wee hours of the morning and slept at 6am today.was suppose to meet su at 10.30am outside sch cuz we wana go back to visit our juniors in band.but i woke up with a major headache at 9am...so i told su i'd go down later..and i slept till 1+pm..then ate,bathed,got dressed,meddled with my hair a little then went off.then reached band room at 3+pm.it's really good to see my cute juniors again~ haha...i bought a packet of assorted mentos for them.haha.yeh kinda miss them.and the syf piece they are playing now is such a killer.wonder y band sir wana choose such a ridiculous piece for syf choice piece.crazy~

oh well..kinda miss my percussion instruments.kinda miss reading music scores and playing music.kinda miss those days when my percussion section would play a part over and over and over again till we wana tear the music score in pieces,just to get our music precise and perfect.haha.miss those sectionals when we would slack if faced with nothing to do.still remember there was once we went behind the sch's tehcnical block..where there's no one to disturb us..no one to noe wad hanky panky business we percussion section was doing...then we played "pass the message" and it was so hilarious.then played "simon says"..lol...instead of practicing...so naughty.but fun.hahaha!~ but there are also times when we will get really really serious and dats when we really really work.yeh.all the sweat and tears.worth it.

oki...dats all for now.going to church in ard 30min time.hungry.gona get a quick bite.haha.