haiz

alright.i've had enough.gime a break yeh.i'm a human.i have a life too.stop giving me such high expectations and EXPECT me to FULFILL it! come on...even though no matter how well i do,u will NEVER b happy! NEVER.all my life,my awards my achievements,my medals and trophies...have u ever taken pride in knowing i'm capable in doing all these? NO! all u do is just say "dats not good enough,dats not good enough" oh come on! i've had enough of ur dumb limitless expectations.i'm gona break free from them.from now on i will NEVER EVER do anymore things to TRY to PLEASE u cuz all dis 17 years i've come to accept dat i can NEVER please u! all dis years i've realised i'm just a dumb trying to fulfill the expectations u have on me! i have never had the chance to express wad i want.NEVER!but from now i shall just do WAD PLEASES ME! NOT wad please u! cuz,again,i can NEVER seem to please u! i can't even study wad i wana study.and now i'm studying wad i love so study,u condemn me saing wad i'm studying gives me no future,no hope.oh man,i shall just prove u wrong.SO wrong! if u bring me into dis world only to b unsatisfied with me all the time,then y bother to even keep me,to raise me? might as well just give me away or have another child and let THEM fulfill ur bloody expectations.omg u manipulate ur children to wad u wan them to b.u nvr give ur children a chance to express their true personality.thanks! i've REALLY had enough! shut up with all those dumb expectations and i dun care if i'm rude here or wad.i've SIMPLY had enough! I AM NOT PERFECT! so STOP trying to manipulate me to perfection! i can't take it!


enough of all dis.


anyway today was a really bad day.stupid me bashed my head against the edge of a glass.it hurts it hurts! it's a wonder i didn't faint.i'm not exagerrating.u wana try the feeling of having ur head bashed against the edge of a glass? i'll b glad to help. XD lol.


had trp outing today.leon going off to ns.everyone's going off to ns!! boo! not fun anymore.


so we played games...and TABOO! haha..TABOO was fun....always loved it.


haiz.some ppl are hard to trust.thank God.i can count on H.S to help me.to guide me and whisper words of caution to me.to deliver me out of trouble.He who is with me is more than he who is in the world.i shall not b affected.i can b soft and big hearted.but i'm not weak.i m stronger than u think.