hmm

alright.sch resumes tmr.more or less don with my work but still have dat nagging feeling i left out something.i hate dis feeling.

sundays are lazy days.nth much can be done.plus,i hate going ou on sundays cuz everywhere will b so so so crowded.i really hate crowds.dey drive me nuts in the negative way.i hate having someone's sweaty sticky arm brush against my arm.it just makes me wana run home and bathe.i hate ppl hu walk so slow and i am stuck behind trying to intercept but can't.it just makes me wana scream into their ears.i hate having ppl shove their elbow into my body when dey wana get pass.it just makes me wana slap them real hard.i hate ppl getting so close i can feel their breath.it just makes me wana stuff oranges into their mouth.in summary,i really hate crowds.i can imagine all the germs floating in the air,lingering among the crowds..everywhere everywhere.it just makes me sick.maybe i have some qing(1) jie(2) zhen(4) -a mental illness where u are obsessed with cleanliness.lolz.

mum cooked nice meal today.love it.i have weird taste.i love plain porridge.so taking care of me wun cost much.lol.

*i wonder when will the time come when u dun have to visit the psychiatrist anymore.i dun think dey help.still remember last time we went counselling? the counselor didn't even manage to change anything in our lives.everything's still the same isn't it.psychiatrists and counselors dun help.now i noe,only God can.stay strong.we're in dis together.we grew up together.we noe wad each other is going thru,wad we have been going thru all the while and wad each other is thinking.we noe the struggles.one day,we will break free of dis bondage.stay strong.*