feeling blue

sometimes i really wish dat i am a kid again. i dun have to worry abt so many things, and i dun have to worry abt heavy responsibilities. when i was a kid, adults will always say let adults handle their own things, while kids dun have to bother to step in and interfere. now i find myself telling myself, i am now almost an adult, it is time to handle adult matters. it's just so hard to grow up. maybe i am just childish. but, i really just hate it when i feel lyk i cannot handle things. it makes my heart so burdened. simple things lyk turning up late for something becomes a major problem. when u are a kid, and when u turn up late, u can push the responsibilities to ur parents becuz u can just say dat dey were late in helping u prepare to go out. but now, everything has to b made on my own. even a simple thing such as waking up must b done on my own. nobody wakes me up anymore and nobody bothers to wake me up even tho my alarm has been snoozing for half an hour and it is obvious dat i am late. i also dun have to work to earn my own expenses, to keep myself alive. i dun have to spend so much on adult stuff becuz as a kid, all u wana buy are candies and toys. and most are being paid for by parents. as a kid, u dun face deadlines dat make u have to forego nights of slp. as a kid, u dun have to deal with diffficult ppl. as a kid, u dun have to deal with matters of the heart. as a kid, all u had to do when u got into trouble was run to mummy and daddy and u are being sheltered from the storm. as a kid, u dun have the burden of making important choices becuz mummy and daddy takes care of such stuff.

growing up just sux. growing up is such a lonely process. i just wish i can b a kid again.














argh i am feeling terrible now. i hope dis blue-ness wun b here to stay for long.




just wad do i want. i dun really know myself.