Life is a rollercoaster ride

can't sleep..so much has been going on in my mind. xin may be right, i am growing on barren land, a land with no nutrients. personal growth,yeh maybe. but otherwise, not much growth. yeh, she may be right. but then again, God works in mysterious ways and so we must not judge or decide anything based on our own limited perspectives.

everything happens for a reason. my departure was for a reason, my arrival was for a reason, and i believe all of these are lessons God wants me to learn. perhaps all these are tests and chastisements from Him. perhaps it's His form of discipling me. i dono. all i can say is, i have changed and i don't like this new me at all.

i miss them. but God is the one leading. so i won't act on rash impulses anymore.


thanks xin. i miss u tonnes!