was abt to log off.but suddenly dono y..had the instinct to go to their blogs.and i chanced upon these...


"fri n sat jan gt go band.. so happi to c her there.. feel lyk we beginning to go back to the past lyk tt liao.. miss her so much.. jan.. if u gt to read tis.. just wanna let u noe how apologetic i am for how we had made u felt in the past.. i'm sry.. we still treasure u very much.. knowing we wld b spending more time together i'm juz so happi.. coz there's juz so many breakfast tt we had nt eat 2gether.. so many shops in TM tt we've nt go to 2gether.. so many occassion tt i've nt sms u to send my regards.. so many craps tt i've yet to share wit u.. realli so glad to haf u wit us again.. lolx.. we muz spend more time 2gether k.. sista 4eva ~promise~"


"Janice, sorry for neglecting you in the past. We really treasure you. I remember those pasts, those memories we had."

wad can i say? i cried and cried and cried...i really miss u guys.all the stupid things we always do..and remember how last tym the whole level 4 new block corridor was our territory??? haha! and we always wave and shout across to each other lyk nobody's business.lyk heck..hu cares! haha.and remember everytime when we wana go kfc we will walk pass the stupid smelly rubbish chute? then we always "1..2..3!" and hold our breaths and walk pass the chute quickly? haha...and the countless times we protect each other from backstabbers in the...ahem shall not say.haha.and thanks guys for lyk..still keeping the secret of me and *ahem* for so long even though no more liao! haha..and the secrets we share abt our crush and all the silly silly stuff...

dun really noe wad happened...but i just left u all without even thinking..doing it on a quick impulse.guess i was just confused,sad and hurt.dono wad everyone's thinking of me..lyk wad have i done wrong and stuff lyk dat..so i tot i shouldn't b a "burden" by staying...perhaps i go all of u would feel better? i dono...silly me i guess...but dats wad i was thinking...not wanting to confront u all or ask any questions cuz i dun wana make things worse.just tot if i let it go quietly..and just leave quietly..things would b alright? i dono...i was just wrong.i can't help but keep on thinking how u guys have been.wad are u all doing right then and all dat.wondering if we can ever hang out again? trying so hard not to think but can't help thinking how u guys have been...

i'm really sorry for all the wrong stuffs i had done too...wana ask u guys to forgive me if i had offended u all in any way...

as for me...i no longer wana hold any grudge or sadness or hurts anymore.i just wan all of u back into my life once more.it's a simple wish...will u all able to grant me dis wish?


love u guys loads.let's not leave each other anymore ok? promise? *hugs*

riddles

Happy Birthday Mum!!

had our first N289 cg ytd.not very used to the "smallness" of the grp and the sudden space we have.haha.but nevertheless was a gd cg.everyonehad to b louder than usual.it was all worth it.guess it'll make us stronger over the time.move glory to glory.yeh.

going for x-ray with xin tmr.i hate x-rays.i just feel so "exposed".lolz.i had my first x-ray at the age of 5.dat tym i was so scared out of my life cuz i tot x-ray involves opening up my body so the doctor can see inside me.i remembered panicking lyk mad in the waiting room and when it got to my turn,i bawled lyk nobody's business.lolz.thinking back,it all sounds so embarassing.haha.

went to visit the band ytd and friday.glad to hear they are sounding great.miss my seniors and my juniors.miss the days when we go for syf and performance,the tears the sweat the excitement and the joy of the outcome.still rememeber during syf,in the tuning room before our turn,everyone's hearts were pratically leaping out of our chests.miss the days we perspire under the sun lyk mad during speech day,playing for the marching contingents,have to play in time to their marching if not their footsteps will go haywire,then have to carry the instruments to the hall for another round of performance.lolz.i still remember last tym we had to practice drill while carrying our instruments.poor shafi and his bass drum.haha.envy the flautists and their light flutes.hiakhiak.miss the last concert performance,where everyone was frantically shoving dinner into the mouth backstage at victoria concert hall.then after dat frantically go to the loo and put on make up for each other and make so much noise.wad else..watching the conductor with eagle eyes,not daring to tear our eyes away from him lest we go out of timing.remember that our finale pieces always brought excitement.haha...and the encores,and after dat the roses we receive.somemore the investitures we have,at first very happy dat we are promoted to a higher rank.after dat down the years,we'll b very proud dat our juniors get promoted,and we'll scream our i-love-yous and wad nots.haha.and every chinese new year we must play the SAME PIECE every year..can memorise by heart already.and we'll graon abt the boring chinese new year piece.then have to wear bright colours every year for chinese new year performance.haha.dread the days when we girls have to wear our high heels,thus we always have plasters ready for each other in case anyone has blisters.remember the band room has an iron,so anyone hu did not iron their band uniform on the day of performance can last minute bring to sch to iron in the store room.and the ironing board? we used an abandoned conductor stand.haha.last tym dread those days.thinking back,now it's all worth it considering i have earned my A1 and of cuz the fond memories.not saying all memories have been fond.some are really bad ones.lolz.

whua.look.it's one whole big chunk of band!!! hahaha...okok.i shall stop liao.dun wan u all to fall aslp.

anyway life is so fragile.one moment u can b enjoying ur life,getting rich and all dat,the next moment some bad thing struck u and dats it.we should all cherish wad we have and not take it for granted,thinking dat everyday will b as it is now..

alright.i wana say a big sorry to those whom i've offended in one way or another.if i have offended anyone at all.

i had a really beuatiful dream last nite.i dreamt of rainbows..many many many of them in the sky..and then i was very happy.and zx was with me.and i told her "look!! rainbows!" and we were very fascinated.thus we took lots of pics.the next moment we were in some sort of theatre.and we were walking on wad seemed lyk melted marshmallows,just dat they were cold.it was everywhere on the floor.abt knee-deep.above us were many many colourful shooting stars.it was all so beautiful...

it's not the first time i dream of shooting stars and rainbows and beautiful mother nature.i once dreamt of many colourful exploding magnificent stars in the sky.brilliant,breath-taking and simply wonderful.wish i could share it with u all.

hehe...i love having such dreams.it makes me wana slp and not wake up at all...

new template!

heee~ new template again! hehe...it took me hours just to get the freaking music here.bleah....finally the music can be heard! wEEEEe..~

You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read. Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few.

What kind of blogger are you?

You Are From Uranus

You shine with brilliant creativity, and you're more than a little eccentric. You love everything unusual and shocking. You're one far-out chick or dude. Anything unconventional excites you - and you have genius potential. Just don't let your rebel side get the best of you, or else you'll alienate everyone. Your original thinking and funky attitude is all you need to be you.

What Planet Are You From?

Your EQ is

100 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How scary are you?

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 70% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population If you scored... 80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life. 60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you. 40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones. 20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good. 0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

How's Your Attitude?

You Are Banana Pocky

Your attitude: fun and lighthearted Unique and unforgettable You are cutie everyone falls for

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

You Are 25% Left Brained, 75% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

this is SOOO true.haha.

alright.enuff of quizes for today.haha.guess u guys are bored to tears.lolz.

sigh

well...no mood for anything right now...some stuff happened and i just dun wana tok abt it.it's nothing very serious.so no need to worry.if it's something serious i'd have told my close peeps.so..dun worry la.i'd b fine in awhile i guess.most of u probably hardly or nvr seen me upset b4...well,it's kinda normal of me.i dun lyk to appear sad and affect the whole world.i'd rather share with my close friends and still appear happy.y must i make it so obvious if im in an unhappy situation right? it would only make my friends ard me feel awkward.haha.dats me.i dun lyk to be a burden to others by affecting others with my moods.unless u are someone very very close to me then u will see my true feelings for the moment.as in,if im happy im happy and if im sad i'd b sad.if in front of not very close peeps,i'd still appear cheerful no matter wad cuz i dun wana affect them as i think it's not considerate.

ok la...enuff of explaining.u guys should get my point by now.

anyway...i dun really noe wad to say now.just feel lyk talking and tlaking.even if no one wana listen i still wana talk.y? cuz i just need to find something to unleash my boredom to.dun get me wrong.dis blog is not my substitute for q.t.it nvr was and it nvr will be.to me,q.t is q.t and blogging is blogging.

feeling so sticky all over.but lazy to bathe.wad the heck.i'm actually procrastinating from bathing! haha....wad a real bummer i am.

im totally frustrated with msn.i think it's so super lagging.it's service is getting from bad to worse.sometimes it works pretty fine.other times it lags lyk dono wad.bleah.

went out with my sis today..lol..alogn with my sis's friend.went to eat then weindow shop at far east plaza.then me and my sis took pics.lol.i'll post it up here soon.kinda lazy to post it here now.haha.

ok dats all.gona face some lonely days ahead..anybody free? pls do ask me out.as for my cell grp members,i understand dat most of u have already started ur new term in sch.it's ok even if i have to accompany u peeps out to study.as long as i have company can le.hehee...

quizzzzzz~

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

You Are 40% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

You Will Die at Age 76

76 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

lost it

ahh~ so good to take a day off from work.lolz.

went for the mass com/fsv interview.i was a total dumb thing.i guess im gona b rejected again.most probably bye bye to mass com.and hello to fsv.well...we're suppose to call next week to check the outcome of our interviews.but i already noe the ans...and dats bye bye to mass com...sigh...

alot of u probably expect me to excel in design and stuff....i think otherwise.im not the sort hu has alot of good ideas in my head for a film or animation.i just watch them.im not good at coming up with films and animations.y? cuz i sat for the fsv test and i found out dat im totally bad and retarded at story telling.even though i love drawing and doodling..but well,they are just drawings and doodles and nothing more.u get me?so..i guess designing ain't my thing u noe.even though i took art as an o level subject.wads more,those art days in sec sch were really big headaches.and once im tired i get "artist block"...and i really hate it when i get dat.so...it shudders me to think dat i have to do films and animations all my life as a career...cuz im afraid my brain can't take all the lack of inspiration.

well...i guess i'm just doomed.

nostalgic..

well...cg multiply le..i think it would b kinda weird not to see some of u during cg le...hmm...but nvm.still the same service and all...and can have outing oso one ma.so...actually abit sad la..but,sometimes we can't hold on to certain good things for long.some good things have to go to make way for greater things.and must learn to let go of certain things oso.cannot always stay at the same place.must move on to the next chapter of our lives and grow ba...

hmm..it's weird dat sometimes i can give words of consolence but i myself aren't able to apply my own words....call dis ironic or wad...

going to the childcare soon...just come online to blog for awhile cuz i have not been blogging for quite some time le...JAE results will b out tmr morning at 8am so peepz,remember to check! oso..going for my 2nd round interview at np...so i dono if i should go to work tmr or not as i dono if i can make it in time..hm....

working with kids no doubt it is very fun and challenging.but sometimes it gets a little tiring cuz always have to entertain the kids.always must have alot of energy to stay cheerful even when i am tired and lethargic.and the hours pass real fast..sometimes i would find myself looking forward to the ride home.cuz i'd purposely take bus instead of the train when i go home..so dat i can slowly spend my time to daydream and rest and slp on the looooong bus journey to tampines.lolz...if i take the train,i still have to squeeze with the obasans and have to change train at city hall....dun really find peace with all dis ppl on the train.cuz they are always so kiasu abt grabbing seats.u noe i really CAN'T stand ppl lyk dat.once the doors open they rush to the seats lyk their life depends on it.then they elbow here elbow there.bleah.get a life man.so NOT civilised.

guess dats all for now...hafta change and get ready to go out already.stay tuned~

y do i need a title? i dun ahve one today.

well...the kids had water play session today.as in they went into a really large "bath-tub" filled with water and were playing inside.so b4 dat i helped them to change into their swimming suits...

went to watch robots with my sis! hahaa...it's a GREAT show! all of u must catch it!! i love watching movies with my sis cuz we'd always nvr fail to buy lots of snacks in.lolz...nachos extra cheese....cheesy hotdog...u name it,we got it.lol.

cg's multiplying.... hm..

well..dats for all..nth much to say anymore cuz im tired.nites!

no title today

hahaha! today i helped a little girl to change diapers at the childcare! my first tym changing diapers for a baby!!! haha...wad can i say? i'm thrilled,disgusted,pleased to help...haha...but after changing i feel a sense of satisfaction cuz i learned something new today.lolz.i'll b a gd mum.haha.

tp sent me a letter already.says im 100% confirm plus guarantee plus chop plus signature dat im in the course le.it all depends on whether i want it or not only.haha.the decision a little difficult to make.hmm..

went to watch Howl's Movin Castle today.i LOVE IT!!! haha...Howl is so handsome! lolz...and i wana buy the soundtrack already.though i have to admit dat Spirited Away's soundtrack is much much better.nevertheless Howl's is worth buying also.

took some pics on my way home...but can't post it here now cuz photobucket is lagging.

dats all for today.stay tuned~

lalalla~

lalala~ haven't been blogging daily cuz was very busy.


10th march
went to meet him after work then we went to have sakae sushi at bugis b4 i head on down to SIS for my last choir rehearsal.oso my last day helping out at the kindergarten classes.

11th march
1st nite of benny hinn's crusade.well in the day i went to work...now im asked to help out at the nursery..where all the 2,3 and 4 year olds are...cuz there's an autistic girl there.anyway i shall tok abt dat later.then after work i rushed down to bugis to meet hui xin and my sis.then went to have yoshinoya..got changed..then sis blessed me with $60..wakhakh...but gone in 3 days cuz kept taking cab... =P somemore is midnight surcharged.lolz.well..the crusade was really awesome! many ppl were healed and everyone was anointed.especially the choir.i will nvr regret helping out at the choir.haha... =D i am just so blessed.

12th march
2nd day of benny hinn's crusade.an extra service was added to dat day due to popular demand.lolz.so had to head down to SIS by 11.45am.me and xin went to buy mcdonald's but was forbid to eat in the cab.bleah~ so we starved lyk poor kittens all the way to SIS.well..so we rehearsed some new songs..and the crowd came in at ard 2plus despite the fact dat service starts at 3.30pm! haha..yes dats how power packed it was.every service was full house and there were still thousands of ppl stuck outside and turned away.every service was lyk dat.real power.during the 2nd service,the snointing was super strong and all fell by SECTORS.first time seeing such a powerful move of the H.S...haha...3rd service was oso powerful and by then i was accustomed to the great anointing.as usual the choir was very very anointed.we fell in all 3 services and it was good.indeed,ppl hu attended the crusade have had their lives changed.

13th march
went to SIS again for combined srevice in the morning.then went home and had a really nice and DEEEP slp.wahakhaa....

i noe a handful of u dono wad im toking abt.it's ok. =) i believe one day u will understand too.

well..then today went for written test at NP for the mass com and film,sound and video thingy.gosh i think i'm gona flunk it.it's comprehension and ARGUMENTATIVE essay!!! gosh...ever since my o level ended,i have thrown my strategy of writing argumentative assays back to my teacher already.hahaha! but nevertheless i managed to write some stuff out.hee~

then went to work.as i was saying i am now helping out at the nursery.i was playing with the autistic girl the whole day.haha...she's really interesting.despite her being autistic,she learns things real fast.all i have to do is show her how to do it and she did it.haha...plus,one thing really intersting abt her is,she has really good memory.i was seating with her,watching her colour on a piece of paper.she took out a red and green colour pencil.after dat i put the colour pencils back in the tray full of many other colour pencils and i shook the tray.and u noe wad? she stuffed her hands into the tray and dug out the two SAME colour pencils.she can really remember which colour pencil she took out.wads more,the tray has many other red and green colour pencils but she noe which one she took out at first.isn't it amazing? and she's really fun to play with.she'll suddenly smile at me..and then hug me..then suddenly she'll b distracted by other things again.haha..and the whole day she kept wanting me to carry her.kept holding my hand wherever we go.

alright...dats all for now.i'm starved and living in poverty once again.... =( looking forward to my paycheck..which is coming in...another few more weeks.... =(

yay! Desperate Housewives tonite!! haha.better make sure nobody snatch the tv tonite~

childcare!

hehehe~ let me start by toking abt my first day at the childcare centre :)

when i got there the first thing dat came to my mind was i had stepped into Sesamee Street.ahaha! the kids are so lively and adorable! they were baking banana bread.hahaha..they were taking turns stirring the banana and flour in the mixing bowl...the kids there are mostly euraseans..and i think there's one japanese...haha...and the teachers there are very kind.after dat they went for music lesson...running ard the music room playing games and all dat..lolz...then they had their refreshment....hehee..basically i enjoyed my day there.cuz they are just so cute. :) b4 they eat they must sing this thank you song to God first..lol...so cute so cute~~

the children there are oso very learned as they all come from big shot families.dis little boy i talked to learns kung fu,piano and tennis and he's only 5.and he told me his aunt and grandfather is very rich.lolz! and the parents hu came to fetch their children...wow..their cars and dressing just say it all.they are really rich kids. :) and they have really cool names lyk naomi,fumiko...etc etc.looking forward to tmr.lolz.it's not difficult to remember their names cuz there's only 7 kids per class...hehe~ but i'd b assigned to help out at different classes everyday.

anyway...after dat i went off to buy my navy blue top for the choir thingy.haha...walked the whole town and the whole of bugis...i've gone to 3 OG shopping malls and i have already memorized which floor sells wad.wakhakhaa...then went robinson then 2 john little malls...still couldn't find the perfect top.then walked the whole of bugis plus bugis village.still can't get the perfect top.instead was mentally planning wad to buy on my next shopping spree at bugis village.muahahaa...then in the end had no options left but to settle for the top i saw ytd at payar lebar...so went payar lebar...and reached home ard 9 plus...lala~which is not long ago..

anyway i went for the interview and i passed it :) dats good.but i think the teachers there are rather intimidating.they dun make me feel good.haha!

well dats all for now...long day but short and sweet entry.hehee~

lalala~ choir~

wasn't able to blog for dis few days cuz mum's using the com...anyway here goes...


Sunday 6h March
went for my first choir pract in church for dis event on friday and saturday at SIS...benny hin's healing crusade...dun vomit.i noe singing is not my forte.just doing my bit to help and taking dis opportunity to serve God.hehe...wad can i say? the pract was fun! haha...but the uniform is really weird..for girls,dat is.hehe.~ :)

Monday 7th March
went down to TP in the morning to register for diploma in moving images thru the DeAE(Design Admissions Execersice)...so i'm scheduled to bring down my portfolio on 9th March..which is tmr!! then decomposed in tampines cuz nothing to do...so left for church a little earlier cuz really very nua at tampines.finished learning all the songs dis nite in choir pract.haha~ was very fun...we're gona sing hymns..not praise and worship.hehee~ the songs are very nice and fun to sing.then after dat went to the kopitiam opposite church for supper..then went home already.

today,went for job interview.starting work tmr.i'm hired to b an assistant childcare teacher.lolz.i guess it's gona b an exciting job.all i hafta do is play with the kids.hahehe~ :) i'm gona earn a really meagre sum..but nvm.let me have something interesting to do for dis remaining months b4 i start sch.hehe~ and of cuz to secure my financial needs.lala~

so...going down to tp tmr morning with my portfolio.the examination board is such a procrastinator in delivering our art pieces back! :S so i can't include my o level art work in my portfolio. :S and also it means i hafta bring my portfolio to work tmr..from tamp all the way to novena...heavy and huge. :S nvm.train my strength.

dats all for now.

~

dis feeling inside,i dono wad it is.i dono how to explain it.it feels gd..yet sometimes it feels sad.bittersweet/nostalgic? hmm~

lala..the JAE website is total crappiness...make me wait so long...finally can access and then lag again.boo! wads so great abt being IT in everything...i would rather they make us fill out application forms than to fill out online lo...at least humans dun lag lyk computers do...it's practically hindering the registration process! bleah.talk abt going IT...come on,computers only make u look smart.computers are actually dumber than the human brain lo.

anyway...just pray hard dat there will b open doors for me for my future...lalala~ future now seems abit bleak after i found out some stuffs...yeh.i shan't elaborate la.lazy to explain the whole thing.anyway...i think it's my retribution la.

ok...wadever it is...just look on the brigth side and praise God in everything.sigh.just pray hard dat i can get into the course i want.dun wana end up hating the rest of my life.

lalala

ok...wad shall i blog today? hmm...so bored and wadever bla...

just came back from ah ma house.on the way back i acciedntally plunged my foot into a puddle of mud.yucks.

anyway speaking of puddles and muds...the weather's been fairly gd lately..as in the rain and all dat...love the rain.feels so cozy and nice all the tym..but on the other hand..raining means no suntanning...bleah.haha...prefer sun in the day and rain in the nite.woosh.dat would b great.if only i could control the weather.lalala~

alright...i guess there's nothing to blog already.going church later...lalala~ dats all i guess....

i'm back!

hellooooo~ sorry for the absence of updates.hehe~

oki.yup so i got back my o level results already.wana noe my results then ask me personally ba.i wun blog it here.dis will teach kpo ppl a lesson.muahaa...

went for several polytechnics and have more or less got my 12 choices.so excited to start sch! to my disappointment i was told dat sch starts in june/july...SIGH! just when i tot i could snap out of my hermit life earlier..i have to b a hermit for another few months.bla~ dun ask me to find a job.cuz u think finding a job is so easy ar.or u can just say im very fussy la.muahaa~ wadever it is i shall try to get myself a job for the sake of some cash and experience.k? so u ppl can stop saying im lazy and do nothing but bum ard.for ur info i have been helping ard at home for dis past few months so nobody has the right to say im lazy and i've been a bummer.k? do not judge.thank you.

alright...well anyway my hp was practially bombarded by phone calls n sms during the period when i was taking my results...i have weird weird weird~~~~ questions being shot at me...there was one real hilarious one...

XX: how're ur results?

Me: (told the person my results)

XX: ok..so which poly can u go?

Me(thinking to myself..): (-_-")...every poly oso can go...how do u expect me to ans dis qn...

Me: Every poly oso can go

XX: Oh!! dats very gd!!

Me: (-_-")....hehe~ thanks....

another one dats real funny..

XX: how're ur results?

Me:(told the person my results)

XX: huh?!?!?! wad do u mean?? i dun understand!

Me(thinking to myself): wad!! u mean u wan me to type out every single subject and every single grade to you in sms?!?! all 7 subjects? u mean u dun understand wad is L1R4 and L1R5??? u mean u have nvr sat for o levels b4?!?!?! gosh...

Me:(typed out every single subject along with every single grade)

XX: oh!!! maths not bad huh! so which course can u go?

Me(thinking to myself): i didnt get the results i expected..i dun even noe where i can go at the moment...how do i tell u now?

Me:thanks~ hehe....i dono which course im going to yet. :)

bleah..and many others la...i dono la.all so weird i dono wad they are asking...

oh yeh and my testimonial...it's just TOOOOO good to be true.muahaha~

well...anyway i failed the interview for digital media design at nyp.bleah.i signed up for 2 interviews at np...mass com and film sound video.wish me all the best dat i can ace either one or both of the interviews!

excited abt my future. :)

lalala~

Fear not,for I am with you.-Isaiah 43:5

Janice,fear not! fear not! fear not! fear not! fear not! fear not!!!!!!!!!

sentosa!!

WOO!!! had such a fun day at sentosa ytd! (^-^) went there ..suntan..managed to get a tan..haha..but not very dark la.just slightly darker only.aunt bought a tankini for me..so decided to give it a try.wear it to sentosa to soak up the sun.it was fun!! took 102 pics~ hahaa....cuz the scenery there very nice...was at siloso beach...well..not exactly at there but near siloso beach.

then at nite had dinner at the Beach Pub...superb pizza!!! superb curry chicken!!! yumyum...

i'm gona go there again....had a really wonderful day~ :D

to view the photos i took,CLICK HERE

enjoy! (^-^)

my hair

im frustrated with the weather.VERY frusrated.y? cuz it's drying up my hair~~~!!!! drying it up!!!! make me so angry!!! :S :S :S

so i decided to tie up my hair..if not it's so irritating..falling dry all over my face.... so dis is wad i look lyk....




bleah....if dis weather persists...i just have to say bye bye to my already conditioned-and-made healthy hair..sigh...my hair..used to b very dry..then i condition my hair regularly...do all sorts of remedy to make my hair better...then it was better already....until the STUPID WEATHER SPOIL IT AGAIN!!!! *screams at the sky* why why why?!?!?!?!?!?! make me very very PEK CHEK!!!!!!!! *screams into ur face* SIGH!

lalala~

hehee....cell was lots of fun! wahahaa...joked abt alot of things...laugh until tummy ache...and we saw one old uncle's bicycle so style!!! whua...it's lyk a "portable temple"....got buddha in front complete with joss sticks!! tsktsk....incredible...and the horn ar...whua...sound lyk car horn u noe! at first we tot it's a car horn..then when we saw dat he was pressing his horn then we realise the sound come from bisycle!!! whua! incredible leh! and there's lots and lots of bells on it...plus lots and lots of bicycle lights...think ard 6 of them...whua...awesome bike! tsktsktsk...should've taken a pic and put up here let u all see...haha..~

anyway the weather's REAL KILLING these days.plus there are tonnes of mosquitoes!!! Attack of the Mossies! buey tahan ok! can't have gd nite's rest...for nites already! sigh....stupid mossies...y did God ever create them...all they do is suck blood and spread diseases! wads the use of them here man! SIGH.been spraying lots of insecticide in my room...my room stinks! bleah bleah....and the mossies SCARRED my hands and legs! got red dots and scars all over..sigh.look so ugly! =(

lalaa~ dats all for now =)

Dentist

went for dentist appointment ytd...had my check up..then the dentist clean my teeth...all squeeky clean.haha.went with mum niece and chris.cuz mum oso need to have check up.niece and chris is follow us de.so while waiting we snapped some pics...



dis is me trying to b smug at the camera.



my niece.cute right.:)



the dentist tending to me.hahaha~


dats all..then we went to eat sakae sushi after dat...yumyum..haha...then went to church already...

oh yeh and i bought my converse shoes alreadt...ard 3 days back.haha...love it love it!

lethargic

feeling sooo lethargic today...no energy...dono wad happen...tot i had dehydration again...but no leh..i drank lots of water....hmm..weird...sigh...or maybe PMS ba....haha...

i think im having short term memory loss leh...i can't remember wad i do the day b4 one..always cannot..my memory span now seem to b one day only.haha...hmm....i've seemed to lost all sense of tym ever since i'm having my holiday...cuz when i dun go sch i dun take notice of the date and day....y? cuz no need to care wad day or wad date got test or exam or project deadline ma.haha.

OH! i remember wad i did ytd already!! haha... i went to meet ah bi and ah xian then we went to have lunch at pizza hut at TM.hahah..yupyup...after dat we walk walk walk and talktalktalk..made 2 trips to the toilet then i went for bs le.yupyup...argh...how can i forget dat i met up with them man...lolz.....see? really short term memory loss...must think very hard then can remember.haha...must eat more fish.

bleah...getting back results soon...Doom's day is coming....i remember in my history textbook,in russia there's one major day and they called it D-day.haha...think was the day russia and germany had conflict ba..can't really remember.but it's something lyk dat.yup...my D-day is coming!!! haha...pray very very very hard!! that i get excellent results!! and be the head and not the tail,above and not beneath! pray hard im in the distinction club nor..haha...do u think it's possible? dono wor...but i noe with God anything is possible! wadever it is just pray very hard la! nvr get good results oso thank God for giving me strength to overcome my o levels.hmm. =)

Civol Defence Day

was at my ahma's house just now and i heard the whirring of the civil defence siren.dats when i remembered that today is civil defence day! hahaa...and i was thinking to myself...picturing all the sch kids practicing their fire drill...lolz...thinking of me last tym in sch upon hearing the siren we have to evacuate the classroom..yet we were so happy cuz it gives us a chance to miss lesson and it makes the teacher frustrated cuz it made them miss their lesson! wahahhaa!! and i picture the recess time today...wow they must b having food rationing!! poor things! no nice food in the canteen on civil defnce! only plain porridge and biscuits right? whaaha..wadever la..i was happily eating my wanton mee~ (^-^) and i remember some bogus japanese soldier hu is actually our sch teacher will announce on the PA system dat he is the dono wad general yamashita or wadever the name is...wahahaha~ so funny....~

V-day

hehee...he gave me Dior's limited edition Dior me,Dior me not perfume!!!!! aaargh!! haha...love it love it! dat's wad i wanted to get earlier..and he got it for me already.haha...hmm..dis year dun have blue roses though.but nvm la..the peach coloured roses oso very nice! haha...i got him two elephants that have magnets on their hands and noses...so when u bring the elephants close together the magnetic parts will attract.very cute la..haha...

wow v-day os soooo crowded everywhere! all the restaurants have loooong queues...even the neo print shop! in fact,we waited ard 20min to get into pastamnia..and waited close to 2 hours to take picture!! hahaa...but worth the wait la...while waiting we met with funny couples...at the neoprint shop,the couple behind me got so bored they started to come up with A-Z of obscene terms and start laughing hysterically....make me laugh oso cuz so contagious.haha.then while waiting we watched MTV..(cuz we're at heeeren)..and they showed a woman going for lipo suction...MY GOSH!! it's the most gruesome thing i've ever seen!!! they cut open the flabby stomache...then scraped out all the yellow fats!! whua~ almost vomited! no appetite! haha...a gross thing to watch on v-day...

then we took a cab home cuz no more train or bus le.

although dis year's v-day is simple and nothing grand,it's still a fun day.indeed,love is patient and kind...cuz all the couples are willing to wait for hours just to take a picture. (^-^)

so here are the pics we took....

no title today

today's reunion lunch and dinner is at my place....dis is my 4th reunion already...whua..can't take it anymore.i'm gona grow fat eating all dat steamboat for 4 days.

well..cousins all came today...sigh.and they spoiled all my toys...all my precious toys i've kept over the years....they tore out my 3 Little Pigs pop-up storybook...tore out the 3 little pigs' houses and roofs..sigh....spoiled my mini pool table...sigh...nvm la..let it be..since they're only kids....must b a big person with a big heart n b quick to forgive and forget...sigh..ok...let it be....let it be...let it be...let it be....

Love

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness,Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love.One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave.She began looking for someone to ask for help.Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you." Then Lovedecided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you."Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity,answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

CNY

alright..my cny was great :) dis year get to visit his family and he get to visit mine.haha....my family's so darn huge it got him really confused...but anyway he looks real handsome for the two days.gosh..nvr seen him so handsome b4 in my whole entire 2 yrs plus with him.haha....(*-*)

alright...valentine's day coming.for all couples out there,Happy Valentine's Day! may ur love bloom great dis year.less bickering less bitching less sulking..more giving and compromising and trust and communication.lolz.let's all draw closer to our other half dis year...alright? dats to all couples out there.especially to...*ahem*...zx and mr lai...lolz~ nah i guess i should start calling u mrs lai.hmm..yeh...lolz...then i bet u would oso start calling me mrs wong.wahahhaa~

ok la zx.stay happy together with mr lai k. *smiles*

guess love is in the air.when sign in to friendster just now i got quite a shock cuz it's all pink and red.at first i tot,not bad.friendster in chinese new year mood.but when i see the friendster icon on the top of the page,i realised it's actually vday mood cuz there's a heart there.wahahaha....even friendster has gone all lovey dovey.

for those of u hu are single,u can spend ur vday in meaningfull ways.go out on a mutual group date with friends or something.have fun,go sun-tan with a group of friends at sentosa or wadever.there's so many fun ways instead of just lamenting abt being single.y make urself so miserable by lamenting dat u dun have a bf/gf right.life is too short to feel miserable abt.hahaa....so dis year,go out with friends! no partner to pamper then pamper urself! haha...go girlie shopping,posh restaurant,or dress nicenice and sashay to town to get in the mood! haha...alright~

Happy Valentines' Day to all~ :D

lalalalaa~

next monday is valentine's day!!!! wahahaha...i noe,chinese new year not yet here and i'm already talking abt valentine's...wahaha.....

hmm..just helped my mum do flower arranging.so funny...all the flowers she choose has prosperous meanings one..wahaha.....aiya..dats superstition for you....hmm..sometimes it makes me wonder...will i b lyk my mum when i grow old? will i arrange flowers too..and start to keep plants and water them daily? will i b so obssessed with housework? will i start to go supermarket all the tym and stress over wad to cook for dinner? hmm..wahaha....can't imagine me lyk dat....however next tym i wana b a supermum.haha...as in..i wana drive my kids to sch in a chic sports car...convertible would b best.wahaha....high class tai tai....hmm....*think too much*

went to his house for dinner....his dad whipped up some dishes...haha.not bad.very nice.watched Desperate Housewives at his place.dat show rox man! it's so funny! ahaha...i lyk it.then his dad and mum drove me home...hmm....

okok..dats all for now.must go out early to buy my stuff later..cuz the shops close early tmr!

lalallala~

who wana go graffiti cafe to draw with me? ring me up kk.

went out with him today and bought his guit.so many ppl wana learn guit dis days.how interesting is dat man.haha.cool cool.

yawnz....i need comics...but no money to get my hands on them now.sobZ.still have other more important things to buy first.can't believe last tym i was a fervent comic reader...everyday read comics under the table in sch...whaaha....now no more la.stopped doing dat during prelims...hmm..now the craving to read comics is back! hehehheee!!

oooh....lalalallallalalaa~

i miss my sch aunty's milo....every morning without the milo i will die one.thus i get my daily dose of it every morning b4 flag raising...that way then i will b satisfied.wahahaha...now no more...have to make my own...i make not nice one.the aunty make one nicer....hmm....*dreams*

i guess i go slp le...lalala~ though im not tired..but...everynite stay up late oso not good la.i noe most of u would tink that the sky is gona fall soon cuz i finally realise dat slping late is not gd.hahahaha~ well...i think health should come first.yeh..most of u should have fainted on the floor by now cuz i said another 'un-Janice' statement...."health should come first"..lolz..since when would i ever think of dat right...lolz...i oso dono wad has come over me to make me say such un-Janice stuff.wahahahaa~

k...i should stop crapping....nitez! ...nonono.....morning!! :D

blessed!

WOOO!! i have tones of new clothes and two new bags and a digicam!! haha..all given to me by my aunty....i love aunty mary and aunty lian so so so much! haha....dey're great aunts! always giving me tonnes of clothes and bags and gadgets! haha....*beams happily*

hmm...it's february already....we're getting back our results soon.....(sorry peepz..for reminding..)

i reached home ard 11++pm after cell grp and went shopping with my mum for chinese new year stuff.went to 24 hour market and bought alot of new year goodies! haha....wow..sure to gain weight if i finish the goodies! haha....2 more days to chinese new year! hehe..can't wait! can dress up nice nice and go visiting...i love family gatherings man....can talk and laugh loud loud..lolz! and not forgetting the tonnes of red packets i'd b receiving.. (for those of u hu noe my family background,u'd noe i'd really get TONNES of red packets~ wahaha..~)

dats all for now!

NYP

went to nyp for the aptitude test today.haha.alright let me tell u abt the test.

1st round:
we were given 3 sheets of paper.one with two semi circles on it lyk dis >> ) ( , and the other with a rectangle at the bottom right hand corner.the 3rd sheet is blank.wad do we have to do? we have to use our imagination and complete the drawing of the
) ( and the one with the rectangle.for the ) ( i extended the lines curved down so it becomes a vase.then i sketched hibiscus sprouting out of the vase...for the one with the rectangle on it,i just transform it into a 3D rectangle instead of 2D,then i just added buildings and sky scrapers and a bridge with vehicles on it.sorta lyk a busy city,ya noe.yup.and for the blank piece we are suppose to sketch our hand.right or left doesn't matter.i drew my right since i'm left handed.and it looks a little out of shape.sadly..cuz we only have 30min to do all these...dun even really have time to 'use my imagination' as instructed.sigh.but i'm glad i managed to come up with the vase and the busy city.

2nd round:
we're brought into another room where our drawings are being viewed by 2 lecturers.then they will tell us to say anything we want abt ourselves.erm..they told me "wad do u lyk?" then at first i was a little blur...so i asked "wad i lyk...as in??" then they say "just anything u lyk." so i just bla bla bla blaaa....and they laughed at wad i said...especially abt my dog.haha...and bla bla bla ...then after dat they said they'd send my results via snail mail.yup.dats abt it.

and since it was still early,i decided to head down to town for window shopping.

1st stop: Takashimaya
went to pay my fine at the library..then went into an art and craft shop and the toy store beside it.i love those two shops so so sooo much! haha.if im rich i would wana buy everything in there.then after dat i went into kinokuniya...browsed some comics and left.

2nd stop:Heeren
went to Action City (another shop which i wana buy everything inside) and saw a keychain i lyk!!!!! sigh..but didn't bring enough cash out...sigh.so can't buy.nvm next week! haha...then i went into HMV to look for posters as i wana paste some posters on my room wall.and i saw BRAD PITT and LEGOLAS posters!! but guess wad??? they are SOLD OUT!!! argh!! and i saw Passion of the Christ poster too! left one only!! argh...nvm next week i shall go buy.hehe.all the nice posters are sold out.so sad.

3rd stop:Plaza Singapura
by the time i reached PS i was real thirsty.so i went down to the basement to look for a drink.wanted to buy soya bean cuz was also a little hungry...and soya bean can quench my thirst plus satisfy my hunger a little...but instead i settled for barley cuz cheaper...=P i must spend WISELY...not blindly.haha.then as i went up i walked past OP shop and Eng Joo called out to me.turns out she is working there now.then we chatted for awhile then i left.

next..i walked from PS all the way to city hall mrt...wow! i almost melted in the heat!! but it's great cuz i walked a great distance and i can burn away alot of calories.hehehe!
i almost got myself lost and it was then dat i realised,everytime i walk from PS to city hall,i'm always accompanied by someone.thus i realised i have always been following blindly and in truth i dono how to walk to city hall.hahahaa! well but now i noe..since i've walked myself..(first time) haha...

then i decided to head home...cuz i was getting kinda tired as i woke up at 5.45am..haha...yawnz yawnz....feel lyk going rollerblading later....

lastly,i wana say a THANK YOU to PEI SHAN for buying me a cup of milo and escorting me to the classroom.thanks!!

weeEEe~

hehehe~~! im so happy...y? cuz i finally have enough money to buy the things i wan! wEeeEe~ see,paying ur tith regularly does have ur rewards.u reap wad u sow! hehehhee~~

alright....i feel lyk going shopping tmr...should i should i? hehe..or maybe wait until next week..perhaps the chinese new year sale will b on next week already.wahaha~ *rub my hands in glee* then i can start striking out the stuff on my wishlist with a huge smile on my face.wahaha...madness...but some stuff on my wishlist cannot b bought with money.those are my long term wishes.hehe.

sigh...we are definitely living in a broken down world.rather saddening..with a little twinge of irritation.cuz...nvm.if u wana noe just ask me.haha.i'd not blog it here. *wink*

anyway..i guess sometimes they dono wads good for them la.they'd carry on following the crowd even if it's not the right thing to do.goes to show how much our society is packed with insecure ppl.hmm....

sigh..

i guess i ruined everything again.

The Phantom of the Opera

went to watch phantom ytd...sigh..wad a wonderful movie....i'm so captivated and mesmerized by it....i want the soundtrack too! gota go buy! hehehe....the movie is very touching and sweet and romantic...and i feel so sad for the phantom..cuz almost all his life he was mistreated and so he yearns for love and affection...very poor thing la..and he's actually very handsome but he was sorta defaced by the ppl hu mistreated him.sigh..so sad.yet so sweet.lolz...

All I Ask Of You
-------------------
No more talk of darkness;
Forget these wide-eyed fears. I
'm here, nothing can harm you -- my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom, let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you, to guard you and to guide you...

Say you love me every waking moment, turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you, now and always... promise me that all you say is true -- that's all I ask of you...

Let me be your shelter, let me be your light.
You're safe: No-one will find you -- your fears are far behind you...
All I want is freedom, a world with no more night... and you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...

Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime... let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you need me with you here, beside you... anywhere you go, let me go too -- Christine, that's all I ask of you...
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime... say the word and I will follow you....
Share each day with me, each night, each morning...
Say you love me...You know I do...Love me -- that's all I ask of you...
Anywhere you go let me go too... Love me -- that's all I ask of you....

=)

hehehe....still up at dis hour..y? cuz was a little upset for wad i did just now...

ok..anyway cell group was extreme loads of fun! ahaha..at first can't find shar's house...me and eunice went to knock on the purple doors we see..wahahaha...thank God the houses dat we knocked on are vacant...or else...wahhaa...anyway after roaming ard the 5th and 6th floor trying to figure out which purple door belong to shar,me mike jae TF and eunice decided to call ying wei.and we were told dat shar live on the 8th floor! wahaha...(we called shar but no one ans) yeh...felt so malu...

the guitar session was fun! haha...and the house was real nice and cosy.i lyk the house.hhaa..though the neighbourhood is rather ooolooo....

well..dats all...i dono wad else to say.i just wana b more mild tempered.dats all....sigh...

sunshine!

whua...i just realised dat exactly next week i will have to go for the aptitude test/interview at nyp already!!! whua!! next week!!! somehow i dun think im the creative sort.who knows...maybe in the end i would end up handing in a blank paper...lolz...ahh choi choi....i dono la.wads more,no one's there to accompany me...sigh.have to go there alone...

hey i really can't wait for sch to start...(as insane as it might sound,i'm serious)...wana have fun..lolz...i go to sch to play...lol..

nowadays it's hard to find someone who u can have a gd conversation with....or maybe i'm too boring for them.haha.well...it seems lyk i am the one hu end up being the listener yet nobody listens to me.it's mostly the case.so sad right...haha...it's so hard to find a good listener nowadays hu can really listen to me...nvm la God is always ard to listen to me.

wohoho....today's the 27th....tmr...muahaha...~

miserable

bleah...my temperature...dono wads wrong..keep going up and down and up and down...i feel really bad...nausea,no appetite and all dat...gastric juices acting up..making my stomach very painful...so i did not eat much for these past 2 days.sigh....everytime after i take my medicine i just wana puke...and then i get headaches....sigh...y izit lyk dis...

dis days i keep having bad hair days....tsk.irritating.my hair's real dry.i wana go for a trim.get rid of all the frizzled and split ends...irritating...make me look so unkempt....tsk...anybody got any haircare tips plz tag....thankew....

man...i just wana puke...

Fever

sick and tired of resting in bed the whole day....my temperature's drop thank God...

yeh.so i'm sick today and nobody's ard to entertain me.wad a day! spent my lonely day in bed the WHOLE day...only having U2 to keep me company....listen and listen oso listen until sian....didn't eat much at all...in the day only ate a bun..at nite only ate a few spoonfuls of rice and veggies....rice and veggie! yuck...a very bland dinner i had....sigh...

basically it's just a sickening day for me.sickening sickening sickening!!!

=(

sick already.....i'm sick already...!!!! =(

sick....

alright...another new template..lolz....

well...guess wad..i'm sick again.my eyes feel so hot....my nose feels so hot...and can't stop dripping...my body feels achy...my head's a little heavy....bleah...i just finished my anitbiotics for sore throat and now i have to start another course of anitbiotics again...sigh....pray for me k? =)

went shopping with mum and chris today for new year clothes.didn't buy alot dis year cuz i have several dresses which i have not worn b4...and aunty mary gave me one whole huge huge bag of clothes!! haha...enough to last me a whole poly year....lolz...so happy! so i dun have to buy any more tops for my poly life. :)

to my beloved: starting work already...pls take care and drink lots of water ok? weather's killing.keep urself hydrated. :) best of luck! love ya!!

alright...gota turn in now...b4 my physical health gets worse.....

To Someone

u dun have to cry,nor do u have to b in distress.cuz no matter wad,i still love u all the same.if u are afraid dat u can't give me happiness,let me tell u i'm doubly afraid everytime i can't make u smile.it's ok if there's no more beginnings as long as we dun have an end.dun worry cuz i am always right here. :)

___________________________________________________________________

You Belong To Me
SEE THE PYRAMIDS ALONG THE NILE
WATCH THE SUN RISE FROM THE TROPIC ISLE
JUST REMEMBER DARLING ALL THE WHILE
YOU BELONG TO ME

SEE THE MARKET PLACE IN OLD ALGIERS
SEND ME PHOTOGRAPHS AND SOUVENIRS
JUST REMEMBER WHEN A DREAM APPEARS
YOU BELONG TO ME

AND I'LL BE SO ALONE WITHOUT YOU
MAYBE YOU'LL BE LONESOME TOO

FLY THE OCEAN IN A SILVER PLANE
SEE THE JUNGLE WHEN IT'S WET WITH RAIN
JUST REMEMBER TILL YOU'RE HOME AGAIN
YOU BELONG TO ME

OH I'LL BE SO ALONE WITHOUT YOU
MAYBE YOU'LL BE LONESOME TOO

FLY THE OCEAN IN A SILVER PLANE
SEE THE JUNGLE WHEN IT'S WET WITH RAIN
JUST REMEMBER TILL YOU'RE HOME AGAIN
YOU BELONG TO ME
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open house

went for np and nyp open house yesterday....then registered for special admissions exercise for digital media design at nyp....so gota go back on the 3rd to have a test...draw on the spot...dun ask me draw wad on the spot.i have no idea.sounds scary to me.

im so indecisive again.bleah.

:)

something's wrong with the template.which means dat if i post more than one entry in a day,the entries will look lyk they "stick" together....nvm la.just continue to read la.close one eye.haha.

well...the day pass real fast.lyk in the blink of an eye it's been 6 hours since im online.but i still feel lyk i have done nothing....bleah.

anyway yeh i noe dat the title of dis blog is actually Green Eyes but i put The Scientist as the song.haha..cuz i dun have Green Eyes' song in my com.

well..i go watch anime already.anime rocks.

heehee

look! new template! coldplay!!! *beams happily* see the frontman of the band,chris martin *first from left*. handsome! haha...

letting go

someone once told me,dat the only way to truely find happiness is to be able to let go of all my hurts and anger first.then i can find happiness.that someone told me,if i always refuse to let go of my hurts,my negative emotions,i will nvr b truely happy.thank you for telling me dis..u noe hu u are..through dis i have learned not to take minor things to heart.though the past still haunts me sometimes,i wana let it go.but i need so much strength...

sick

feeling sick today....sore throat...headache...feeling tired,fatigue....bleah...

went out earlier in the day to do something for my aunt..then went home at ard 4+pm to slp...i slept till 9pm..then had an awful dinner of rice with carrots,potatoes and green veggie...(no meat)...so tired today.dono y.

aniticipating for my results.and oso waiting for the company to call.waiting lyk dis makes life a little dull but thank God there are still stuff lyk the com,my dog ,my guitar and loved ones ard me to keep me going.feel lyk drawing again.got the urge..but i'd prefer to do it in the middle of the night when everyone's aslp.more peace.i need to find cash to buy another sketch book.my sketchbooks are used up.bleah.

i wonder y...maybe i'm just paranoid again....

brad and jenn

brad and jennifer are splitting up?!?!!?! but WHYYYY???? they're such a lovely couple! sigh~ why why why?? sigh.... he's so good looking and she's so stunning....and they're leaving each other? i can't belive dis!! sigh...

anyway...went for a job interview today.cool company.pray hard they'll call me up soon.went SPCA today...and guess wad...i'm being attacked by two mad dogs lo...i went into the cage of the first one..so CUTE!!! who noes..the moment i stepped in she jumped onto me!! she's huge man...up to my shoulder's height when she jumped up...and i was so taken aback i quickly scrambled out of the cage.then i went to the other side...saw a dog ...soo cute!! also those big sized kind...so i went into the cage again....and guess wad...he held onto my leg and kept gnawing onto my arm lyk as of it's a delicious bone! my gosh...then i wanted to come out but he bite my leg and refuesd to let go...siao gao! but i managed to after much struggling in the cage.lolz.crazy.madness.lolz.but nevertheless they are still cute in my eyes.haha.i love dogs.i really do.hee.

*dreamy*

haiz..so touching...if only it were to happen in real life..heeZ....hatori and shigure are so so soo man...yuki and kyo so sweet and caring....kisa so cute....momiji is oso cute! and not forgetting the suave hatsuharu...hehe...actually if akito is not such a bad guy he would oso have been rather suave. *beams happily*

well,it ended with a happy and touching ending.i love happy endings.*beams*

dog nails

ok..just came back not long ago from Pet Safari.went to buy dog food for my beloved Bobo..hee...oh yeh and i oso cut her nails today.it's getting real sharp.now it's nice and neat.lolz.i'm sure friends out there would b glad to noe i've cut her nails.everyone's complaning abt her nails when they see her.lolz.

k..my dog..wad can i say...the moment i came back with the pack of food she jumped at me lyk some crazy hungry ghost unleashed from the other realm.and her tail was wagging so hard i was afraid it would fall off....so i took out a jerky stick and she jumped and grabbed it in her mouth in a flash.crazy dog.she nvr gets tired of eating.really.she live to eat.not eat to live.

k...anyway...i've got not enuff cash to buy dog shampoo for her so guess wad she's using now? Organics.yes.Organics Soft and Silky with Nutra-Life Egg Nutrients.lolz...o yeh,considering dat she's got short fur,i guess my mum would shriek at me as she sees her shampoo go to waste on a dog.

rainy day today....wad a dread.i want sunshine.

Oh Mr Sun,Sun,Mr Golden Sun,please shine down on meeee~ (a song from Barney and friends)

*getting crappy...*

a new day!

wow...i think i'm really officially a Bummer.i can't get up in the mornings anymore! i tried,setting my alarm and all dat.but then i end up snoozing my alarm till it goes off.sigh.

well...today's sunday...wad should i do on such a sunny day? feel lyk hanging out by the beach.the weather's been so cold for the past month.can't stand it! i prefer sunshine!

my hair's getting longer....must go get a trim soon.man..i just can't wait for school to start.i need a life! haha..i noe dat is an ironic statement..considering dat i used to always say dat school makes me lifeless....yeh but now i realised dat school indeed can bring life.

after all the job searching and interviews i went,i finally understood alot of things.firstly i understood y adults always tell me dat school is easier than work.it is true.in school all i have to do is study and do my assignments.in work,i need to find the right one with the right pay,and take up responsibilities.i oso undertood y adults prefer going to school than to go to work.cuz i am feeling dat way now.i would rather go to school than to always go for interviews only to be another failed one.it's frustrating and tiring.finally,i understood y parents and teachers always stress us to get excellent grades.it is not to compete with the society.rather,it is for our own good.for i realised dat without my o level cert,my job opportunities are very limited.so ppl who are still studying out there,better study hard! it will benefit ur future.

yesterday was reading Life! and i came acrossed this statement dat says dat according to a new survey,90% of men says dat their spouses are their best friend.then the statement ended saying dat it is very disturbing considering the fact that a dog is a man's best friend.lolz! dis is quoted by some guy from some talkshow i think.so funny!

hi i'm back!

right....haven't been blogging for exactly one week.sorry guys to have to make u all read the same entry for one week.ok well....nothing much has been going on lately dat's why i have not been blogging...just cleared my room so my room is now spic and span.and i'm very much looking forward to chinese new year! haha....yeah...and i dono wd happen but when i press "enter" nothing happens..so today's entry will only b just in one whole paragraph.lolz. hmm...3 days ago a lizard found a cozy spot on my bed and refused to budge...goodness knows where it is right now.wherever u are now lizard,get lost and dun ever come anywhere near my bed u get it? i say again,get lost.go eat up all the flies in my room if u want.i'll b very grateful.but wadever it is u better not make ur presence known to me cuz i'm not interested in meeting u.u wana stay in my room? then eat up all the flies.if i see u,out u go.u wan to continue to be able to have food to eat then u mind ur own business and i mind mine...wadever it is,we better not meet u hear me?no more leaping ard my bed lyk it's a fun dazzle.it's MY bed.not urs.u got ur own resting place,i got mine.my bed's single bed,so it only has space for ONE occupant.get it? ONE.so it means either u or me and it is most definitely ME.so..thankew lizard for doing ur part in getting rid of the flies in my room.and u should b thankful u escaped from dad's hands and are still alive today to have the luxury to eat all the flies u want.i dun wana cya.

bleah

Happy New Year to my dearest readers. =D

well,dis year started off great for me.went guitar session with jonathan,and watched Electrico life at esplanade!! they rock man.finally there's a local band worth to be proud of.serious! haha.no kidding.u guys should check them out.not ur average rubbishy singapore stuff.lolz.

k...learnt a few songs..and hey jonathan,thanks for tuning my oh-so-out-of-tune guitar eh!! haha... =P horrible horrible me.must get a tuner soon.anyone kind enough to gimme part of their ERS thingy? wahahhaa....joking la~ if only i'm 21 years old now..then i would b $400 richer!!! haha.i still got a few more years to go.boo!

right.i gota start changing my slping pattern.i noticed i have developed dark circles under my eyes.AAARGH!!! no it cannot happen!!! k.must have a healthy slp time.no more late nites.yeh so wad am i still doing here? i better be gone gone gone!

NITEZ! or rather....MORNING! =D

happy~

celebrated our 23rd month anniversary yesterday.took nice nice pics..hehe.... :D also we went to watch National Treasure.hey the show is great man! actually wanted to watch Phantom of the Opera or Ocean 12 de...but settled for National Treasure cuz it's abt to stop screening soon.hehe.oooh can't wait to go and watch Ocean 12..got Brad Pitt! woo...hehe...and can't wait to watch Phantom of the Opera.my favourite musical.

woo...dis year i received alot of tops for christmas.hee.and accessories too! yay..got new wardrobe le...new clothes to wear..new earrings and necklace and bracelet to wear too! and rings! haha...

28th January 2005...would b two years since we are together. :D

New Year Resolution

hmm~ next week is next year le!!! wahaha...

anyway..i'm glad cuz my new year resolution for 2004 has been accomplished.dat is not to procrastinate in my studies.i'm glad i did it.and hui xin,congrats dat u did it too!! we made it! *hugz*

ok..my new year resolution for 2005? well,i wana love ppl fervently and have a big heart.i dun wana hate anyone,dun wana bear grudges,dun wana carry hatred in my heart.i wana b happy.also,i wana take over my emotions and not let my emotions take over me.i wana carry a smile with me wherever i go and bring sunshine to everyone.i wana b more sociable and less shy.and i must learn to open up more.yup.i just wana b happy and happy n happy for the year 2005.dats the most important new year resolution dun u think? nothing beats being happy.

hmm..also i wana spend more time with my relatives.dis year i have not been a good grand-daughter,have not been a good niece,have not been a good daugther,have not been a good cousin,cuz i have not been attending my family gatherings.miss my relatives so much.yup so 2005 i wana spend more time with my relatives and attend the family gatherings.

hmm...2005 i oso wana b a better girlfriend.no tantrums and all dat.must b more understanding.yeh. *smiles* and must not b so shy when i go his family gatherings.ya.must learn to b more sociable and must open up more to his parents.cuz we are together for 2 yrs.cannot always b so shy anymore.

i must b strong

nvm.i can take it.i must tell myself dat i am strong.i cannot break down and b soft and let ppl gain dominance over me.

oooo

smart alecs wun remain smart for long.

ate sakae sushi today.full till can burst.

christmas

went to buy guitar dis morning...weee!!

anyway went down to town just now...wow! the whole town is ALIVE with christmas!! lots of performance from a number of churches! really cool man! and strikeforce was performing at the parade (strikeforce is my church's percusiion team).yeh and it was really cool! my main purpose for going town today is to c him perform cuz his church was oso putting up a performance there.yeh.it was nice!! hehehe~ well done! =D

oki.christmas is coming and i simply can't wait! lalalala~ tuesday gona do last minute christmas shopping.i dono wad to buy for my aunts.haha.headaches ar.no cell group dis week cuz got christmas celebration at indoor stadium.haha~ yay can't wait for it to come! it'll b really fun!!! woohoo~ i really love christmas.my favourite season of the year leh! lalala~

=D

service was great yesterday~ =D was real blessed by the message.

going for cell group later...then in the night gona buy my guitar!! yayayay~

my sis came over for the weekend.i miss her lyk mad.i really do.ever since she moved out,i hardly get to c her cuz she's always too busy to come back.we chatted till 4+++am dis morning! whua..i enjoyed our talking cock session man! it's lyk ages since i talk to her and there are so many things to talk abt! haha...i wish it is lyk last time,where we go down to some 24hours minimart or wadever to grab snacks if we can't slp..then we'll chat thru the nite...crap together..then share our girly talk...hahha...haiz..miss her so much.sometimes i wish she will move back and stay with us.sometimes i feel so bored and lonely at home.no one to talk to.can only face the com..which can get kinda boring.haiz.

then when i came back from service yesteray,guess wad? my mum is playing with my niece's kiddy cd-rom lo!! hahaha!! then she was so engrossed in the games...then after dat me and my sis joined her in playing...but so lame one la~ ask u which is the shortest which is the talest,wwad match with wad...u noe la,those children's educational games.hahaha.then after awhile my mum said exasperatedly "eeeeyer!! not fun la! so chicken one!!" and me and my sis were lyk "hellooo~ dis is CHILDREN'S GAME leh!!" hahaha...

to a friend: hey there! get well soon alright! and cheer up =D i miss ur smile!

prss3e5-2003(formal)

miss my class!!

prss3e5-2003(informal)

welcome to the happy tree friends gang! muahahaha

oki..hahhaa....most of u must b wondering wad the heck am i doing with this happy tree friends kin right.muahahaha....bet most of u wun wana stay at my blog for long already cuz i understand dat the song is real irritating.wahahaha!!! aiya...fun ma.lolz.must add some cheer to my blog.blogs cannot always b sad and moody right.it would b boring.hahaha...

right,i love dis skin alot! haha....fancy joining me in the Happy Tree Friends Gang? wahahaha....lalalalalalalala! lalalalalalalala!!

hope dis skin would bring cheer to ur day la.hehehehe~~

.....(-_- )

....(-_- ).....woke up at 10+am today....with a major major headache..wanted to go back to slp but just can;t get to slp.feeling so bored so came online...yeh i noe im not supposed to face the com with a major headache...haha...but got the urge to blog.wana talk.just wana talk.

i'm so hungry.dis days my appeitite has been going haywire.argh.crazy liao.cannot continue lyk dis if not one day i'll expand sideways.haha.well,just wana find something to do so at least can get my mind off food.lolz.if i got nothing to do all i do is eat and eat.

my room's a mess.yesterday nite...or well should i say in the wee hours of dis morning,wanted to clear the mess under my bed.so i took out everything under my bed...then after dat lazy to carry on clearing...so listen to perfect10 then laze on the bed...then talk on the phone for awhile then continue to nua.after dat when i finally felt tired,the next thing i knew i pushed everything back under my bed again.got pack=no pack.hahaha...aiya cannot lyk dis la.one day must really really pack if not who knows wad other insects im gona share my bedroom with if i dun pack.lol.ok i must definitely pack my room b4 christmas.who wana come and pack my room with me?

another day to nua again? ok later i going airport to fetch him.hope by dat time my headache will go away already.lalalala~

happy ~ hee

whua..now is already 3.28am le~ monday already~ haha..and i'm still awake!! hehe..

well,the past 3 days have been super fun days! hehe...hmm...friday got home quite late cuz it was raining real heavily...then when i got up the bus,me and hui xin and mike were shivering lyk poor little stranded kittens...then the bus was quite emtpy..then i cannot tahan le..so i said "whua can the air con b turned down?????" then immediately the air con was turned down!! then me and hui xin and mike were so amazed then we laugh and laugh and laugh..~~ haha..indeed,ask and u shall receive! lolz~

k..then saturday nua at home in the afternoon.then went for cell grp at nite.cell grp was fun! hehe~ then after cell we had fellowship,then we takl and talk and talk...from 8.45pm talk till 10.30~! haha...we sure can talk~ haha...then melvin suggest thursday go marina south eat steamboat.woohoo~ dis holiday i'm really gona gain weight! haha... then after that went chalet.then the chalet got no place to slp!! so pathetic.so i went home..then zx ton at my place...hha...yup...

then sunday...me and zx woke up in the afternoon,so didnt go tkd..so we nua at home again....then zx tot me the healthy way to cook instant noodles.haha.interesting!! after dat we showered then got ready to go out...go meet jonathan and clement to play guitar.then at 1st we went to esplanade then it rained halfway.lol.so we ended up at the war memorial.at first i tot it was such an ooolooo place...then after staying there for awhile i think it's ok le la.then play and play...then went to bugis wanted to eat old changkee but it was already closed when we got there! so ate yoshinoya instead.lol.then so full...ready to burst.

then came online then chat and chat and play with webcam.then now nobody's online le accept for my cgl..lol..as usual ba.haha.well dats all.gona zzz already.yup.and i guess gona stay at home the whole day today ba.must pack my room already.and maybe do a little housework.then perhaps can get money from mum??? whahhaa...yeh.must learn to do housework already.if not next time my house would b such a messy place.cannot.must b neat and tidy.yup! happy~!!

nightmares

nightmares again....again and again every nite....i guess i dun wana slp anymore...

mixed feelings..

mixed feelings mixed feelings...all i wan is a gd gd slp....hopefully a deep and dreamless slp...i miss those days when i dun have nightmares...been having alot of nightmares and waking up in the middle of the nite.perhaps dis should explain y i dun lyk to slp dis days.once i close my eyes the nightmares begin.

been feeling fatigue...no energy to do anything.sometimes just wana b alone.yeh it feels gd to spend time by myself.there's peace..and there's inspiration..yet sometimes i need the company of ppl ard me too.hmm...

chat with zx on the phone throughout the wee hours of the morning and slept at 6am today.was suppose to meet su at 10.30am outside sch cuz we wana go back to visit our juniors in band.but i woke up with a major headache at 9am...so i told su i'd go down later..and i slept till 1+pm..then ate,bathed,got dressed,meddled with my hair a little then went off.then reached band room at 3+pm.it's really good to see my cute juniors again~ haha...i bought a packet of assorted mentos for them.haha.yeh kinda miss them.and the syf piece they are playing now is such a killer.wonder y band sir wana choose such a ridiculous piece for syf choice piece.crazy~

oh well..kinda miss my percussion instruments.kinda miss reading music scores and playing music.kinda miss those days when my percussion section would play a part over and over and over again till we wana tear the music score in pieces,just to get our music precise and perfect.haha.miss those sectionals when we would slack if faced with nothing to do.still remember there was once we went behind the sch's tehcnical block..where there's no one to disturb us..no one to noe wad hanky panky business we percussion section was doing...then we played "pass the message" and it was so hilarious.then played "simon says"..lol...instead of practicing...so naughty.but fun.hahaha!~ but there are also times when we will get really really serious and dats when we really really work.yeh.all the sweat and tears.worth it.

oki...dats all for now.going to church in ard 30min time.hungry.gona get a quick bite.haha.

gd morning!

good morning!!!! hey hey i woke up at 9am today ok!! wad an accomplishment for me~ haha....waking up earlier and earlier each day~! improvement huh...alot of u have been telling me to slp early...well u ppl no need to worry anymore cuz i bet one of dis days i will start to slp early already.wahahha~

whew~

wohoho...spent hours doing this template....headache headache....yeh i noe the pictures are scrolling real slow...haha...sorry wor.i dono wad to do abt it...

haha...yeh i know dis days i keep changing skins.since i got so much time,y not? hahhaa~

lalala~

wow..woke up at around 1+pm today...haha....man i'm really turning into a bummer dis holiday.first time in four years i really had a real real holiday with no band practice or remediels or having to do stupid holiday assignments...haha~ wow..life is good.lolz~

oki..so he msged me last nite when he reached cambodia.wow he is at phnom phney~ envious leh.haha~ and my aunt is oso going cambodia dis friday..i think she's going there for backpacking.dat's really cool!~ i oso wana go~!!! haha..

hmm..wonder wad i'm gona do today...i dun wana bum around the whole day doing nothing.wana make this holiday a fruitful one...don't wana waste my life away..

well yesterday was quite a day...but one thing's for sure and that is i'm gona miss ah bi lyk crazy....dat girl always go back malaysia during holidays...argh! so me and ah xian always dun get to celebrate christmas with her.so sad! *bad ah bi* ahaha..

well...dats all for now i guess....~

emptiness....

wow...first time in days i actually woke up in the morning! haha...have been slping late into the afternoon for many days already.....

woke up today...then talked to him for awhile and then he's off to board the plane...after this im gona go watch ah xian's pipa competition...u go girl! u can go it! yeh ...can see she's rather pressured after hearing her last nite....well dun worry ok.everything's gona b fine.

went to trim my eyebrows yesterday with ah xian...then walked from tampines to pasir ris..then went to white sands....after dat we went up to the library and borrowed some books on psychology...so funny...dono y im into dis kinda stuff now...perhaps it's cuz of ah xian..after hearing all the psychology stuff she told me which i find really interesting..haha...

oh well....miss him badly...

wad do ya'll noe?

gona be lonely lonely lonely lonely......without you!!!

went to watch The Incredibles yesterday.the show was great! another must watch!

please take care of yourself while u are away...

bored...

firstly i wana say is yeh i noe the music doesn't really go with such a soft and sad background...but i lyk dis song alot and i lyk dis skin alot so i just put two and two together and so there u have it....besides,i dun wana make my blog seem such a sad place...dun wana feel sad everytime i preiew my blog yeh....haha...wana feel a twinge of hope instead...

oki...been kinda lazy to update my bloggy....and nothing much happened lately anyway...oh yesterday's sermon was superb! yeh...and i really miss cell grp....haha~

oki i'm gona watch The Incredibles tmr...i'm slow i noe....i bet most of u have watched it? haha....oh i watched The Polar Express already and i can tell u it rocks! haha...it's so breathtakingly wonderful...the graphics,effects,sound effects and all....and the story line is so touching...almost cried in the cinema..but lucky didn't...haha....if not would be so embarassing....

sometimes i feel lyk moving over to my grandparent's place to stay....my niece is lyk super irritating and i cannot take it.feel lyk tying her up and locking her in the closet...FOR GOOD!!! brat with a capital B....

on the bus..nothing better to do..hehe...

nice christmas tree...see the angels?

merry christmas~

Welcome To My Life

all i wana say for today is...

Welcome To My Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life