and im STILL intruding into his life...

still enjoying prying into his privacy...lol...

oi mic! nokia3310?!?! time to change your phone!

still prying into his private life...and enjoying it...lol..

looking into the contents of his hp...found alot of secrets wor!!! shh...

oooo~! dug out his hp from his pouch...

me inspecting mic's pouch...

mic boliao...took pic of me..lol..

smile! you'r on candid camera!

darling dye hair....haha~

albert einstein of the 21st century?!

mic~!! doing highlights to his hair...the aluminium foils are courtesy to me and chris..lol!

act sweet!

act cute!

ooo~ act cool..lol...

both of us on his mum's bed..haha~

me and chris darling~ me did ice rebonding..he got a hair cut..havent't dye hair though.haha~ nice??

ice rebonding~

hey hey!! o levels are OFFICIALLY over! woohoo~

yup yesterday was my last paper...and i went to do ice rebonding straight after dat...lol! ooo the ice rebonding was soooo cold..it felt lyk my scalp was freezing!!! haha..so now i got a new look...and i hope i can start my post-secondary school life as a new person again. =) an improved person.

after my hair makeover i went to meet ah xian..and we went to makan...after dat we went to tm cuz she wanted to buy bday presents for two of her friends.and guess wad.i met melvin! haa...so melvin's the first cgm to c my nre hairdo..lol...

then me and ah xian went to meet chris after his dnt paper ...which was at 4.30pm...then we waited for mic for ages..lol...wad took u so long huh mic! haha...then we went to an ooolooo shopping complex there cuz chris and mic wanted to have a haircut...the hairdresser is good despite his rundown looking shop in the ooolooo shopping complex...and the stupid ah xian...we walked and walked in the ooolooo complex till we finally spotted the escalators..and the stupid ah xian exclaimed "OOO~ they have escalators!! " wahahahhaa....wad kind of a statement is dat man! then we finally arrvied at the hairdresser...and chris wanted me to go buy the medicated plaster thingy for him cuz he's got stiff mucles in his arm...so me and ah xian went to parkway parade which is just opposite the ooolooo complex..and we saw a tcs actress...dono wads her name but anyway she very dao..lol..

then xian went off to meet her sis and mum go kbox..then me and chris and mic went for dinner at parkway...then went to watson's and bought gatsby hair dye...rusty ash...so we went back to chris place..and me and chris dyed mic's hair..after dat me and mic dye for chris..haha....fun~

headache..

man i got a headache for a whole day...a splitting headache..

by the way i'm currently readin The Da Vinci code by Dan Brown...it's such a wonderfuly interlligent masterpiece!!! ppl out there who haven't read it ,it is a MUST read ok! it's absolutely fantastic.beats harry potter man.and i tot harry potter was good!

hmmm

woke up at 8am yesterday morning...wanted to go jogging with him but it was drizzling so we decided to go for breakfast instead.so we went to cafe cartel...a delicious breakfast! we were so so full~

then we went walking ard...searching for salons to ask for the price of hair rebonding cuz i wana rebond my hair after my last paper tmr..hee! hmm after dat we went back to my place to get my stuff for cell then we went out again to go meet my friends...

today i woke up at one plus in the afternoon...wow i have nt slept lyk a pig for very long...actually i woke up at nine...and the first thing dat poped in my mind was "REVISE!!!" then i realised dat tmr is my last paper and i could still revise in the afternoon...so i went back to slp..haha...wow i guess i wun b able to get used to not being busy..haha...

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own,is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.

Feeling real stiff

i'm feeling so stiff today!!! cuz me and him walked and walked and walked for very long yesterday....from cineleisure to suntec!!! argh! haha....

yesterday was a fun day...me and him went out to study..we went to the library at orchard..and i studied my poa and he studied amaths...after dat we got tired of studying..so we decided to go for a walk and catch something to eat...then we walked to somerset and ate old chang kee..whua so nice! haha...after dat we went into heeren cuz we wanted to go to the beauty shop to look for gatsby hair dyes...whua can't wait to dye my hair! haha...

after dat we walked and walked until dinner time..then we can't think of a place to eat..cuz everythign there we have already got tired of eating..lyk yoshinoya,pastamania,long john's...all these we have eaten so many times we dun feel lyk eating at those places already...then we saw a man from burger king giving out coupons...so he said let's go take to see if there's anything nice...so we took the coupons..then we went to bureger king..and realised we can eat the student meal which is cheaper.so he went to buy the student meal.then he upsized it!!! whua soo big !! and i was so so so full....then after dat we were so full we could hardly walk..wahaha....so we tot of the crazy idea to exercise...and we did so by walking from cineleisure to suntec.....whua...legs gona break..

then along the way we saw those trishaw riders..they were parking along the roadside waiting for customers..and guess wad? they were blasting techno music!!! whua...so cool! picture a trishaw ah pek lying down with his legs crossed with techno music blasting from the speakers from his trishaw...whua so cool lo! then i wanted to take a pic of them..but my samsung phone is spoiled...the lcd got some problem so i can't use it..so i'm using the nokia8250..no camera..haha...too bad then...

dis day's i have been walking alot....two days ago i went to his place there to have dinner with him..then we were so full again so we decided to walk...and from his place we walk and walk till we reached tampines mall..haha! good la..i can shed some calories...

by the way dis year the xmas deco in orchard very hilarious one leh! they have huge xmas trees down the whole stretch of town..then when nite comes,ALL the xmas trees shake their butts one...wahaha!!! so funny lo!

back in singapore...

whua..im safe and sound back in singapore...in case u dono wad i mean...well,lemme explain.my history paper is over! i've been touring around the world for 4 days...well..in my history textboook dat is.yeh so my history is over,and im back here in spore! for good! (i suppose..)

man today was an emotionally drained day...not forgetting to mention physically drained as well..ok here is wad happened first thing in the morning...

i went to sch ..and in sch the first person i saw was my art teacher..kinda bad luck for me..cuz i sure noe she will do something drastic to my art work..which she really did! well i already prepared all dat i had to do for prep work,and my final composition was ready and im ready to give it a go.i had already prepared all my materials for that piece of drawing im gona draw.but dis is wad happened: she is not happy with my final artwork,and guess wad.she took away my final prep work and gave me another idea...i asked her to give me back my original idea cuz im afraid i wun be able to finish dis sudden unexpected change of final work she gave me...yet she refuses...and my world came crashing down and i was brutally crushed...so i had no choice but to do something i wasn't prepared to do...paint a piece of drawing which i didnt even prepare for it...haiz....sickening..and in the exam hall i was already on the verge of tears...going to cry any second.why is the world such a cruel place?! haiz....but i held on to my tears anyway...i scared wait i cry i can't stop crying and everyone in the exam hall's gona think i'm nuts or wad...*sigh* well..perhaps God allowed dis to happen for a good cause...

anyway when i was having art in the exam hall,there were some funny stuff dat happened.there was dis girl beside me(private candidate)..and her paints and painbrushes were all new!!! still wrapped in their wrappers...haha..then when she started to use them she had to tear them out from their wrappers..paints paintbrushes and all..and it was rather noisy ...all the crackling noise from the wrapper..haha!! and there was this girl who was using a marker(oso private candidate) and i think her marker ran out of ink..and she kept shaking her marker..and the "clack clack clack" sound was so LOUD despite the fact that she is ACROSS the hall from me...haha! and i think she panicked when her marker ran out of ink cuz the way she shake her marker was very furious...hahah~~ and the paper ends at 11am...and got one private candidate came at 10.05 am! haiyo~ amazing.....haha~

history was a breeze..the subjects i studied came out.praise God!! =D

haiz ok...i gtg rest my tired body and my weary soul....c ya!

yawnz again

man i feel so tired....yet i still have so many things to do...i wan o levels to be over NOW! i dun care! now means now! hmph~!!!

man i think i'm gona gain extra flabs already.have been staying at home for 2 days and eating and eating...argh...eating seems uncontrollable when i am studying...i must munch something when i study if not...u'll probably find a decomposed me at my study desk...yeh in other words i'd b rotting away with boredom....

after this week,i'm gona be free lyk a bird escaped from a cage.well i still have one paper on the 22nd.wad i mean is,this week's subjects are boring...boring subjects to study! so...after this boring tedious week is over,im gona fly lyk a bird!!! hhaa~

hmm let's see..i have a whole list of stuff planned after my exams...
-firstly i'm gona rebond my hair,
-then i'm going christmas shopping,
-then i wana go do french menicure,
-then i wana buy myself new clothes,
-then i wana go ice skating!!
-then i wana go kayaking..
-i wana go sentosa to sun tan,
-i'm gona contribute to the environment by dumping ALL my worksheets into the recycle bins for papers at changi airport(anyone wana join me in my environmental project? hehe~)
-then my mummy says she wana go HK!!! WOOO!!! and she ask chris to come with us~ waha! yay can "mai dong xi chi dong xi" in other words,shop till i drop and eat till i BURST! haha~ (ok the english one i partially made up myself one la..)

yupyup! yay....haha....nvm nvm ...ONE MORE WEEK TO GOOOO!!!!

yawnz

yawnz....my art my art my art!! God plz to something to help me in my art!

yesterday was my church carnival..so FUNNNNN~!!!!!!! haha..i brought madeline and si xian along..haha...and dat JASON!! *smacks myself on the forehead* scared of this and scared of dat!! =P haha~ then keep on wanting to play game to win a teddy bear!! lolz...and got us into playing game oso...lol....so it was a very fun day....but it rained halfway and our shoes and the bottom of our jeans got so wet! and uncomfortable too! at first jason only won a pitiful looking "pencil box" ....or should i say it is more lyk a pencil case sewn out from bedsheet...aha! then after dat he die die oso must get a teddy bear..so we play and play and play...and he finally got one!! haha...then we were so happy..then hui xin oso went to play..and she oso won a teddy bear! hahaha...haiz..so fun lo yesterday...if only my o levels were already over..then i can go play again today and bring another grp of friends today oso! *sobz*

at the end of the day me mike hui xin and si xian called a cab to fetch us home since the 4 of us stay at the east side....then we split the cab fare and share lo....looking forward to such days again! after o level...gona play play play play!!

to my dear friends and CGM: play with me after exam wor~~!!~!!!

??......

stress,sad and insecure...wad the hell is wrong with me....haiz..

desperate!

man i'm desperate to go for a hair makeover..my hair's lyk a patch of grass on my head! ARGh!

anyway today's gona be another stay-at-home kinda day for me...nowhere to go..only can go visit Germany and Russia and China in my history textbook...a free trip around the world in a day..now how's dat for exchange with boredom? hardly any luxury at all i must say....

:(

he's very ill...hi gh fever of 39.5 degrees..and the doc suspects he is down with mumps...oh no! dis can't happen! not now! haiz...y must he fall sick at this time when we are in the midst of a major,life threatening exam??? God please heal him...

so poor thing..wish i can do something to help ease the physical pain...*sigh* =(

sWiMmIng~

hehe..came back from chris's country club and started to do my blog template at once.anyway,nice skin? haha..

so today was a fun day once again.went swimming at the club...finally learnt how to really really swim...thanks to chris who taught me...much to my horror...cuz we went to the 3m deep pool..argh! and i refused to let go of the side of the pool..choosing to cling onto it for my dear life until chris had to give much persuasion before i reluctantly let go...so i swam lyk a dog for the rest of the day..refusing to let my head go underwater cuz i didn't bring my goggles and i have this fear of closing my eyes underwater...i dono y..haha..

after that we went to a japanese restaurant at the club to have our dinner..and man..i was so full cuz we ate alot~ haha...

yeh so that's all abt it for today..time to hit my history book...~

A Princess' Life

wow...Princess Diaries rox~ it's such a beautiful movie~ :D how i wish i am a princess...wad a luxurious life i would have! :D

anyway me and ah xian were pigging out in the movie.haha.we bought nachos with cheese,a huge coke and a huge popcorn...we didn't even have enough hands to carry all that stuff..so the very kind person gave us a plastic bag to put our popcorn in.lolz.

after the show we went to take neoprints ..and after taking them we figured out that the sticker machines in town are nicer...so we decided to head on to bugis.and so we went there,and took photos..we wanted to take somemore but the shop was closing...yeh so too bad.then we went window shopping..walking aimlessly looking at cute little stuff..and bought some stickers to paste onto our handphones.it was a rather nice day for me yesterday cuz for once i forgot all abt my books in lyk...3 months! haha...

at the end of the day,ah xian's dad and chris coincidentally called and said they wanted to pick us up.so ah xian's dad brought her home and chris brought me home.a nice day i must say.i'm lookng forward to this kind of day again on the 22nd..yes 22nd! the day where the battle ends~

so today,i'm going down to chris's country club to study my history cuz the place is a very condusive envirnment to study in,especially a tedious mind blowing subject lyk history.yup.and after studying perhaps i'm gona go for a swim there too.so time to dig out my "rusty" swimming suit..as i have not swam for lyk...2 years!!! =P

that's all for now..blog again later~

happy happy~ :D 

the grudge

haha~ went to watch The Grudge in the morning after my chemistry paper..with farid and zuraidah.and farid was so nice to gimme a movie treat.ha~ thanks farid!

yup anyway the movie was rather scary...though i dono y everytime after the scary scenes,the three of us would laugh hysterically~ lolz~ and at first we couldn't find our seats.so we just sat at a "spooky" place..right at the back where it is very dark.then behind us was a wall...but there was a gap between the wall and the back of our chairs...then when we turned around and realised that gap,our imaginations ran wild..thinking dat halfway through the show a hand is gona come up and grab us or something,so we ran to the other side of the room and sat at some empty seats.the whole row was empty actually..and farid insisted he wanted to sit in the middle so he would feel "safe" .haha~ but halfway through the advertisements i decided to move in and sit in the extreme corner..and then to regret later cuz farid was saying wad happen if a hand suddenly pops out of the wall and grab me..wahaha~

anyway watching a horror movie with the two of them can turn out to be a comedy at times,cuz they really give crazy hysterical comments on the suspense parts...wahaha~ yeh so it was an enjoyable morning with them.

later on i'm gona watch a movie again..haha..with ah xian.we're gona catch The Princess Dairies 2.lolz.excited cuz i love watching comedies with her...we can laugh the cinema down..and stuff ourselves with popcorn lyk there's no tmr..lolz.yup so i' waiting for her call to tell me she's ready and i can go out already.

chemistry paper was a breeze~ so there's hope for my science after all~~ haha~ :D

sprained hip

ha~ i forgot to tell u guys dat i sprained my hip on saturday.now i feel so stiff and i can't even bend down with ease...which means i have difficulty wearing my shoes and socks while standing(which is wad i always do) ,have difficulty sitting down,have difficulty lying down,have difficulty wearing my clothes...bla bla ba...i just feel so stiff! lyk and old oooooold woman...sobz..

bliss~

aaaahhh...a nice weekend for me...well a nice saturday dat is...before cell group,me and chris darling went walking ard tampines central...going to metro and isetan and looking at prom dresses...wow so beautiful!! i wana wear one so much!! and i dream of going prom with chris but then we are in different schools..and anyway,our school didn't organize a prom nite dis year so too bad..haha..and so after dat we went to look around for formal shoes for men...ya noe,those u wear to a wedding ...cuz chris wanted to buy...wow...they look so slick and shiny..haha...haiz.dream of wearing formal with him and going to some formal occasion..haha..dat would be wonderful....hee...

well anyway i had my e maths paper 2 today.it was well...kinda tricky but manageable alright. :D so after school i went to meet him at bedok...and we went to eat sliced fish noodles for lunch at a hawker centre behind his school...it was delicious man! after that we headed to his place.i waited at his block downstairs cuz he was going down again to start his father's car anyway.cuz his dad is currently working in hong kong and his car is here.so chris was saying the engine of a car,if left stagnant for too long,will get spoiled or something...i dono.ask him.haha.well so anywya the engine's gota run once in around 4 days so chris will go down once in a few days to get the engine running for a while...

yeah well so we went into his dad's car and he started the engine..got the engine exercising...and then we were fiddling ard with the knobs and buttons in the car,making water spurt out at the front and stuff...turning the steering wheel and stepping on the accelerator,pretendng to drive...bla bla bla..haha..and fiddling with the signal knob...looking at the arrow flash left and flash right....and then fiddling with the air conditioning..opening every compartment to see wad's inside..haha....was kinda fun i must say.and right n the middle of all the fiddling,out of the blue came past a funeral...was kinda scary.but we carried on fiddling with the buttons anyway and making water spurt out from the front again...haha~

and then we went up and i was so tired i fell aslp...so when i woke up it was around 4 plus? i think..and i realised he too fell aslp so so did his brother.haha~so i snacked and came online...chatting and reading my chemistry notes.then his mum came home and cooked dinner...and man am i full now.whenever i'm out to eat with his parents or at his house to eat,i'll NEVER fail to feel full and ready to burst! yeh so he was saying if i marry him i'd be sure to grow fat in no time.wahaha~

oki.yup dats all for today.gona enter into the world of chemistry...ciao~

lalalala~

:D happy~

Praise God,for he never fails to renew me and deliver me from all sins and problems.

lalala~

love_dreamz..... (^-^)

in the beginning

in the beginnning,everything seemed wonderfully perfect.everyone is happy and contented and feels dat they can never find anything more happy than this.everything done is done with joy and laughter.

as time passes,problems surface.at first,they will be settled peacefully and everyone would be happy again.but as the problems happen again and again,and get more and more frequent,the happiness wanes.there will no longer be sparks of happiness but sparks of anger.overtime,hurt,anger and resentment replaces happiness.replaces the wonderful days that used to be.

in the beginning,promises are made.promises of forever happiness,promises of forever caring,forever sweetness and forever understanding.yet as time passes,these promises are slowly forgotten.the promises of sweetness are no longer there...as the promise is made out of nothing but just a rush of romantic emotions.slowly,the sweetness melts away like candy floss...never to be able to take it back anymore..and everything is not as sweet and wonderfully perfect as before.

through experiences,i have come to conclude that in the beginning,everything would of course be perfect.because in the beginning all we see are nothing but perfectness.but as time passes we shall see all the ugliness of situations.and the true colours too.

thus,i shall never be fooled by the sweetness of beginnings anymore.becuz they are ...well...only beginnings....

will it come back?

xiang hui dao guo qu.....

Break Away

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakawayI'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

(*~*)

i think i am a very selfish person.i must change lo...but i dono how ...and i am so demanding...on myself and others.if it is only on myself it's ok..but on others too? dats too much dun u think.haiz...i must change and it takes alot of will power to steer my mind away from all the negative thoughts and selfish thoughts....it takes alot of mental strength to calm myself down so as not to misunderstand others.often i must have alot of strength to tell myself not to think lyk dat cuz it's wrong.it is easier to give in to my emotions but i dun wana give in to it.i m not gona let it rule over my life.i must get the strength to change.can i ? will i ? where can i find enough strength to carry on?

Slow tears

I look upas a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

Seek not my heart

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?
Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?
Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?
Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.
It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.
It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.
No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.

Warped and twisted

Harsh words & violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped & twisted
So many tricks & so many lies
Too many whens & too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped & twisted
Sleeping awake & choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted
Lost in someone so warped & twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much,
I'm warped & twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here, warped & twisted

* * *

Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.
Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.
Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you're better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.
Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.
Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.
Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.
Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don't let on that you're not,
What you're pretending to be.
Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.
Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.
So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?

You can't.

* * *

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.

Refuge

I sing a love song to you Lord
Everday,everynight
Tell of your goodness and mercy
Tell the world
How you rescued me
Picked me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life

Where can i go
From your presence
Under your wings i take refuge
Your spirit lives within my heart
I know we'll never be apart

Chorus:
Everyday
I draw closer to you Lord
I long to see your face
And hide in you embrace
All my life
Dwelling in your Holy place
My heart oh Lord you've changed
I'll never be the same

Never be the same...

weee

hmm...ss paper was quite a breeze...pray that i'll do really well..cuz the examination board is a very cruel place.if the paper is easy it means the marking will b strict.ha! i really call dis unfair~

chinese paper was quite a breeze too but i duno if i can make it for paper 2 cuz it's kinda difficult.but all in all it was gd.must pray very hard.

haiz.someone i know is super super proud.disappointed with dis person.changed alot..dono wad happen to dis person.dis person is not the person i used to know.dis person better be careful with the words said man...this person better think twice before saying out words.i think this person nvr think before speaking.cuz the words are always so proud and i-know-it-all-better-than-you.*rolls my eyes* puuhhhh-leeease! gimme a break~this person better be careful cuz the sin that God hates the most is pride and the saddest thing is dis person has a serious case of pride man.plus a whole LOAD of attitude problems. *take note that i used the word LOAD and not LOT. ha! i can't stand the attitudes.think you are great? wana boss me arounD? u know wad? dun bother to boss me around cuz it's not gona work.dun try to boss me.dun even dream of it.u have ur life i have my life.u have ur way of doing things i have my way of doing things.so dun always try to show that ur way is the right way.and,i think u gota give more respect to ur friends.all in all u are too PROUD.

blessed~

feel so blessed...have not felt so blessed and happy for quite a period due to all the worldly problems...

service was absolutely fantastic yesterday...super fabulous...cell grp was fantastic as well.and my angel is......JASON~! haha....he disgiused himself so well that i tot my angel was a girl all along!! ha~ crafty Jason....

but anyway,thanks jae! u are so thoughtful...whahaha...actually i wanted to reply to your letters one leh...cuz i asked shar if it is possible if i wana write to my angel.and shar said can...just address it to "Janice's angel" then 2nd letter u say no need reply u liao..haha...

haiz...sometimes i dun feel lyk going home...i know it is absolutely wrong to think of dis.i know ok? dun have to tell me or lecture me or wadever...i know.it's just a dreaded feeling whenever i come home and i face a totally negative atmosphere.it's lyk the aura at home is totally totally on the dark side...i just wana get away from all these negative things,i try to make things better..be cheerful,be thoughful...but to no avail...all i can do is just pray very very hard..i just wana be in God's presence and never leave.just stay there forever..cuz it is there that i will feel very happy and assured..it is the place where i know that everything's gona be alright..it is the place where i give away all my stress and burdens and feel renewed...it is the place where my cries are heard...if no men can hear the cry in my heart,it's ok.God can hear.and i know He will be with me.

"With men it is impossible,but not with God;for with God all things are possible." -Mark 10:27

sad

i feel dat i have let so many ppl down....

y am i such a bad person? so insensitive and so selfish...and take ppl for granted...and nvr spare a thought for others..?
y am i so wrapped up in my own selfish tots..
y am i so uncaring?
y can't i bring joy to my loved ones?
y am i so self-centered? haiz...
y am i so demanding..so insecure all the time....so suspicious of things...
y can't i have a peaceful mind?
y izit always swarming with evil voices?
y am i so crushed?
y am i so taken in by the wrong tots?
y am i so naive?
y am i so inconsiderate?
y am i so ignorant?
y am i over-confident?
y am i always so judgemental?
y can't i love ppl fervently?

Mr. S.A. Tan...just shut up and get out of my life...i'm happier off without you..
i dun need you to make decisions for me cuz it only brings me harm..
i dun need you to help me judge cuz u dono how to love ppl fervently..
i dun need u to direct me cuz it will get me nowhere...
i dun need u to tell me how to live cuz u are only full of death and u dono wad is life...
i dun need u to decide my feelings and emotions cuz it only makes me weaker...
i dun need u to teach me wad is love cuz u dun know anything about true love.
most of all,i dun need u in my life cuz u serve no purpose...u are just a waste of time...
dun ever even dream of looking for me.i will not entertain u.i dun trust u one bit.not even a tiny microscopic bit.i am stronger than u think.

GO TO HELL WHERE YOU RIGHTFULLY BELONG

In God I trust.

sExYyYyYy!!! smitten by dis pic (*-*) wooohoo~~ *gushes* 

All my life (^-^ )

I can never find another lover
Sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you
*Boy you are
Close to me just like my mother
Close to me just like my father
Close to me just like my sister
Close to me just like my brother
You are the only one my everything
And to you this song I sing

All my life I pray for someone like you
And I thank God, that I
That I finally found you, baby
All my life
I pray for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too

I promise to never fall in love
With a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the lord above
For sending me your love
I cherich every hug
I really love you so much

All my life
I pray for someone like you
And I thank God, that I
That I finally found you, baby
All my life
I pray for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face
Always seem to glow
You turn my life around
You pick me up
When i was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face
Always seem to glow
You pick me up When I was down (X2)

And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too

All my life
I pray for someone like you
And I thank God, that I
That I finally found you, baby
All my life I pray for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too

*word is changed to suit the purpose of me entering this lyric into my blog =D

o levels~

exactly one week later from now,i'll be seating for my o level chinese paper~!!! waaaahhhh~~!!! *cryZ* im not dat worried for chinese...but worried for my social studies~!! i have yet to finish studying for it! booohooo~

having emaths tuition later at 5..dis days have been very rainy and wet...and it makes it really troublesome to go out cuz it's cold..yet when i wear long pants to protect myself from the cold,the bottom of my pants get soaked...argh...

went to the airport with him yesterday.at first there were alot alot alot of ppl...but after that slowly it was only the two of us..then after that the lights started to go out..and we were so scared that we would be locked up ..lol...(we were studying at T2 staff canteen) and then the cleaners started to come and clean up the place and the place seem so quiet and eery...lolz..so we quicjly packed up and left for home...

i ate alot yesterday...for breakfast i ate beencurd,vegetarian noodles and cream of mushrooom accompanied by 3 slices of bread...in the afternoon i ate nothing cuz i was so full...in the nite i ate prawn noodles for dinner..and snacked on chocolates...drank ginger beer and lime juice...aaaargh!!! dats alot! and i felt so so so bloated!

8 more days and counting down

8 more days to o levels!!!~~~ aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! i'm not exactly 100% prepared....nvm...must have faith!!! cuz SUDDENLY my miracle will come~~ XD

when o levels come...i'm gona countdown to the day when i have freedom from secondary school~ and after dat...i'm gona countdown to my most most most moooost favourite season of the year---> CHRISTMAS~!!!! =D =D and after that i'm gona countdown to new year..and start my new year fresh and anew..with new visions and dreams for the year..and put the unhappy past behind and look ahead~ after that,i'm gona countdown to chinese new year~~ wWEeEEe red packets and not forgetting lots and lots of snacks(hopefully not weight gain though) yupyup~~ after this..im gona countdown to my most anticipated yet frightening moment
----->getting back my o level results....yeh...scary~~~~

unproductive...

*sigh* another unproductive day...why izit dat i always find it hard to concnetrate when i'm studying humanities? argh~ yet i can concentrate really well when i'm doing my maths and science...

by the way...one good news...i've finished my physics ten year series! weEeEee~ well...i dono if it's enough or not...i still think there are some areas which i need to touch up again...am i expecting too much of myself? am i over-working myself? i can't help it though....no matter wad u guys may think...i just wana do well..so that i can choose my future...not do badly and let my grades choose my future...bet alot of u guys out there also want the same thing.*sigh* the question is can i really make it? can i really get the grades i want? man...dis is tough...really tough...good grades seem to be out of reach for me...but i really want it.really badly.my true desire right now.please pray really hard for me..

can't belive exams can really have such a huge impact on me.it's only a few papers...yet i'm freaking out about it...this just shows the power of examinations.i dun wish to see another paper anymore...cuz papers scare me to death~

hold on tight

cherish the sweetness...
lest they melt away..
and can never be felt again...

childhood friends

i miss ah bi and ah xian alot~~ really miss those days in primary school when we would be super notorious and have attitude..wahhaa...i found our primary school photos and we looked so babyface!! argh....can't wait for o levels to be over so i can hang out with them~

after we have entered sec school,we hardly communicate anymore cuz we're always busy with our sch stuff..and also we have found our own group of clicks in sec sch...we do go out at times but not as often as when we were in primary school.but coincidentally we encounter the same problems all the time~ haha...guess dis is really fate...we'd always find ourselves in the same boat...so it's easy for us to relate to each other..and know that we have each other to count on...our friendship is really strong and we've been through a great deal man! from petty quarrels to big fights to cold wars..and i mean really cold..wahaha..and lots and lots of happy memories and crazy times...i still remember there was once me and ah xian sat at a patch of grass and waved and shouted loudly at every bus dat passed by...wahaha...and once when we came back from taekwondo trianing,we saw a mound of grass which the grass cutter had swept aside..and we jumped right into that mound of grass and messed everything up!! hahaha...so fun so fun!!! not forgetting ah bi's bday last year...we went to celebrate at heeren...took lotsa pics huh..and me and ah xian secretly bought a cake for bi...then dragged bi to an underground carpark and gave her a surprise!! whahaa..

i still remember the last chalet we went to..it was years back man..in sec one.ah xian's dad got a chalet at changi safra...and we had lots of fun there...plus we tried to climb onto the roof cuz we were playing badminton and the the shuttlecock got stuck up in one of the roof shingles...hilarious!!! we tried lots of hilarious ways to get the shuttlecock down...from trying to carry bi and me up to the roof to xian throwing a roll of mahjong paper onto the roof...and in the end the mahjong paper got stuck up there as well!!! wahahaha...

haiz...ah bi and ah xian...miss u girls alot!!! looking forward to having a stayover at one of our houses after o levels yeh~~!!! friends forever~

science pract

had my o level science practical today and it was rather tricky! just hope that everything will turn out fine...

mum cooked dinner yesterday and it was delicious (as always) and she made strawberry and bana milkshake.mum cooked dearie's share so he came over for dinner too.tuition was ok but i feel dat it is not productive enough.oh by the way,my tuition teacher said we could go over to her place for a swim anytime we want! cool~ haha...i think i wana go gym..i havent been exercising for quite some time.must fight those flabs!

hyped up

feeling pretty hyped up right now.just came back from sch and i've learned alot of useful skills in answering source based questions for humanities.

i don't have much to say these days probably cuz my life has been revolving around my studies and i shan't rant on about my revision here cuz it may sound really boring for most of you.just wana wish all those who are taking major exams the best of luck.

to a particular someone: can u just stop being so arrogant and carry that i-know-it-all-and-i'm-always-right attitude? it really gets on my nerves.can u please humble urself? can u smile more and dun carry that frown on your face everytime i see you? it dampens my mood tremendously whenever i see your face like that.i can't help but feel extremely irritated.stop being so whiny.u have to accept things even if they dun turn out the way u want them to be.this is life.if u can't even do that i don't know wad to say or do to help you.you don't have to show that i-am-not-happy face to the world everytime u are affected by something cuz it affects the people around you.this can spoil a person's day.think about what u wana say before u even say it out.it is always best to think twice.stop talking with the i-am-clever-you-are-stupid kind of attitude cuz it really gets on people's nerves.stop thinking that you are always right and the people around you are always wrong cuz we can't stand this kind of ego.it would be great if u know who you are.

voices

my mind is invaded with voices.which one is true and which is false? which can be trusted and which can be damaging? these voices haunt me and torment me,making my heart yearn for peace.everyday i am faced to make decisions-long termed and short termed.when decision making comes,so does voices.i don't even know where the voices come from.they just march into my brain like soldiers readily armed for war,giving me a headache.they contradict themselves silly and make me mad.they threaten every strand of my hair to turn white.they are trapped in my skull,pact like sardines in a tin can,making my temples throb as i deal with each and everyone of them.

the voices go wherever i go.as long as my mind is not made up,they are there.they twist and turn themselves into domineering threats to my emotions.they call out to me,instigate me,confuse me.they cling for dear life onto my brain,refusing to let go.the more i think,the more they multiply.it's as if my mind is a carcass infested with insects as it decomposes.

voices,voices,go away! i shall drown them out with rock music and slay them with maths formulas.i shall indoctrinate them with world history and implement them social studies.i shall intoxicate them with chemistry and shut their illogical facts with physics laws.i shall exercise them with the english language and the chinese language.i shall give them a more creative life by introducing art.

rule your mind before it rules you!

only 4 words today

UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED WITH RESULTS

FRUSTRATION

super bored...gona be bored to death...can't wait for time to pass so i can go meet up with the rest for cell group...argh...

my place is so noisy.cuz my spoiled brat niece is at home getting on my dad's nerves and my dad's irritated and he comes and complain to me.argh.wad the heck.can't even have peace at home.argh~!!! and my spoiled brat niece is "multi-tasking"...watching cartoons and playing her piano from toys r us....but actually she's not even paying attention to the tv yet she refuses to off it...wad a waste of resources! and when the bill comes my mum will not be happy cuz of the increased usage.and she says i'm the one who waste electricity!!! says i always use the com and always stay up late to study and waste electricity!!!! how i wish they can open their eyes and look properly before pointing fingers! at least i'm MAKING FULL USE of my electrical appliances! unlike my niece who switches them on and DON'T USE!!!!

the best solution is NOT to stay at home as long as my niece is at home.and i belive there will be JUSTICE!!~!!!! AAARGH!

yooohooo~

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ prelims are over over over oooooooovveeeeeeerrrrrr~~~!! hehehe....my art paper today was ok...but i dono if it is acceptable cuz by right it's suppose to be a painting but i tot i could use colour pencils..so i only brought colour pencils to school..argh wadever~ hehe

went straight home after exam today...and came online to wait for him.hopefully he is able to use the com..can't wait for his return on sunday.to him:if u are reading dis,just wana tell u i miss u and i'm always here for u whenever u need me.perhaps dis period of time is kinda hard for u..i dono..but juz wana let u noe my shoulder is always available for u to cry on,my ears are readily tuned to listen,and my hugs are in abundance.

whew...ok..i'm gona rest and relax for the time being.gona plan my leisure time and activities later.weee~ havent been exercising for quite awhile.so i must plan a time for dis.oh and i can't leave out shopping.lol.i'm not really a fervetn shopper.in fact i only shop less than about 5 times a year.it's just that i'm kinda loaded with cash now..so y not spend them on the things i lyk...pamper myself a little and give myself a credit for being so hardworking in the preparation for prelims! wkaakhaakaha...oh yeh,and also reward myself for fulfilling God's calling for mission funds.wahahakkhakaha...

total bliss~

a skyscraper in the background..really nice..

me and xin at sentosa for the Amazing Race organized by our church.fun fun fun~

at the singapore river..we went to catch a fireworks show at the esplanade..and then walked around to take pics..

at a very nice cafe in raffles...the crystal lights behind are very pretty.. =D

happy~

yay~ the tedious papers are all over! tmr is art paper...lol..but to me,every art exam dun feel lyk an exam.cuz to me it feels more lyk just drawing leisurely...yupyup...so i can give my brain and body a break...a good good rest...to prepare to my o levels! hehe...yup the real thing is only just about to come....

today's papers were ok...chemistry was rather tricky but i think i can make it..poa paper one was quite a killer though..and i think my poa paper two should be alright. =D wadever it is,it's over...okok i'm not gona think abt it already.haha.must give my brain its desired rest.lolz..

can't wait for sunday...sunday's gona be such a happy day...monday's gona be happier~

hm....

well...another new skin....decided to change cuz my mood is no longer "avril lavigne" but dis...feeling dreamy and wana be alone to daydream....guess dis blog and the midi really suits my mood now....

YYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY~!!!

wowowowowow~!!!! i can finally blog!! FINALLY!!! argh...havent been blogging for so long~!! haha....so happy!!!

by the way...my prelims are gona be over soon.tmr is chem paper and poa paper.friday is art.then finiiiiiiiiiiiish!!! =D and then monday is a special day.cuz it's his bday.looking forward to celebrate with him! hehe.....

okok...well time is limited for me now so i cant go into detail on the days when i was absent from blogging.i'll blog again tmr alright! wkhakahaha.....happy happy...

to him: i really miss u alot

free...

it's a freedom i have never felt before....

heee~

wooo...just came back from the airport awhile ago...i spent a total of 6 hours in the airport today!!! wakhakha....teaching annie Emaths and doing my chemistry....hui xin came too..she did physics...so me and hui xin took turns teaching annie.

school was utterly boring as usual...only maths class was fruitful.the rest of the 9 periods?? more lyk doing nothing.arghz.i feel lyk it's such a waste of time~!

47 more days to o levels.if u include the science practicals,it would be 39 more days.*gasp* can u believe dis? yup so maybe i wun be blogging for quite awhile.cuz i have to do intensive revision...even more intensive now~

aTtItUdE~

me..at burger king...love dis pic alot..think i look really cool in it..lol~!

bored~

hi..back blogging again~ just washed my clothes...gona do my hw soon after this i guess....dun think i'm sleeping tonite..not tired..and wana study...i fell aslp last nite..or should i say dis morning..at 4am..cuz i was so so so tired.and i ended up not studying again~...hehe...

graduation ceremony tmr...can't belive i'm graduating already!!! time flies! but the weirdest thing is,i haven't even taken my prelims and i'm graduating already...~ lolz~ weird time for a graduation huh...haha...

i dono wad i'm feeling now...last time in primary sch,on the last day of primary 6,i felt so sad cuz i'm leaving already.but right now i just dun feel anything.probably cuz technology is so advanced now there is friendster and msn messenger and all these that we can still keep in touch for n years...yeh..times have changed...keeping in contact is just so easy...sometimes we take each other for granted...agree?

in the past we would all be so afraid that we would stop sending letters to each other already,or we wun recognize each other anymore if we dun meet up for a long time.but now? we dun have to worry as long as we all have friendster/msn...and we can even put up our pics too...missing out on each other's life? there's always a blog to catch up with our friends....everything has indeed changed alot...keeping in touch is just one click away.no matter how fa ror near...we dun ahve to worry abt postage expenses anymore since ppl hardly send snail mails nowadays....hmm....y am i thinking so much? haha...oki,gtg...later~

sch tmr...

sch starts tmr...holidays end so fast~!!! i have been revising my ten year series but i haven't done the worksheets which my teachers have given me.haha~ i must say that i'm quite sick and tired of worksheets...

just cam back from tuition an hour ago.wasn't a fruitful session cuz i didnt really ask alot of quiestions.(i didn't do much too...) there is art lesson tmr...and i haven't 100% prepared my materials...arghz...i dono wad to do for art tmr...

just want prelims to come~!!! cuz i can't stand going for lessons anymore.the period after prelims would be better.cuz it's self study time~!!! argh!! cant't wait for it!

=D

weeeee~!!! came back from cell ard 2 hours ago~ had bible study with shar and mike before cell.i'm finally having bible study~!! weeee~~

oooh by the way,my hair is long enuff to tie in a pony tail already~!! YESSSS~! been waiting for dis for...erm...ard 3 weeks..haha~ yeh i'm actually soo amazed by the speed of my hair growth.fast~! which is great! oooo~!!!

had a talk with zx just now...it feels great to contact her after so long....just wana tell u ppl,next time if u have any friction with ur friends or wadever,do remember to humble urself and approach each other to talk things out...i realised that keeping silent and developing the Cold War only goes to show how much pride we actually have...therefore,being humble really helps alot! and saying sorry helps too!!! to a GREAT extent!!! which is why the bible says that God is attracted to a humble heart.which is so so soooo true~ after the cold war is over,everything just feels so great.all the warmth just fills me again and i no longer feel lyk something is missing in my life...which is zx,my best friend of 7 years..

zx,if u are reading dis,just wana tell u that i love u so much.cheers~!!!

new template again~

hehe...i guess dis works better.the previous skin,no doubt it's awesome but then there are some problems...yup...well dis skin is more me.so i lyk it alot too~ haha...ok i've been slcking for over an hour...back to study now~

p.s. i'm gona have a gallery section up soon....

holidays ending..

10th September 2004

holidays gona be over soon.dis holiday has not come to a waste for me cuz i'm glad i have been revising and catching up with my work~ =D and not slacking..lyk wad i have been doing for the past holidays...

after my major exams are over,i'm gona draw my life away....

lalala~~

9th September 2004

just came back from maths not long ago...we were pigging out on wasabi snacks~! haha...really cool~

thank God he's feeling better...not fully recovered but at least on the road to recovery... =D want him to get well soon...life's kinda boring now cuz he's sick and we can't go study together...and my friends aren't always free..so right now i'm doing self study...which is kinda boring sometimes..cuz if i have a query i have to "bookmark" it...can't get my queries answered on the spot.and i dun really lyk dat cuz i prefer to get it done and over with...

quite worried for my science...have not been doing well lately...haiz...

hmmm

8th September 2004

had maths remedial today ...quite fruitful.cuz i asked miss ang quite alot of questions...

he's sick le.poor thing.body aching all over and no energy to do anything.so i went to his place after school to c if he's alright.and when i reached he was still slping...with the air con on and he was wrapped in his quilt lyk a butterfly in a cocoon...poor thing..yet he refused to c a doc no matter how much i persuaded..so instead i passed him some medication..and thank God he says he felt better after taking them..pray that he will get well soon...

nostalgic

7th September 2004

hmm...dono wad to say today.kinda disappointed.it's always lyk dis.forever lyk dis.forget it.i shan't bother.i have better things to worry abt than dis stupid situation that always happens no matter wad.irritated with it.irritated with the irresponsibility put in it.hu knows,maybe it's all lies after all.no care is put in for me,so y should i care?

slept at 5am dis morning cuz was doing my maths hw.went to the airport to study with hui xin and annie yesterday and had quite a fruitful study session. =) glad~

sore throat

6th September 2004

hmm...it is monday today! no monday blues..noe y? cuz it's a holiday! haha...hmm ..i'm going to the airport to suday with hui xin and annie later.i sms hui xin and coincidentally woke her up in time to go for her remedial..haha..xin,if u are reading dis,must thanks me! hahhaaha...

got a bit of sore throat here...arghz..guess i pigged out too much on chips and biscuits..that's wad usually happens during the holidays..i just pig out too much.i've already gained one kg.i dono whether to say it's a good thing or not.one side of me says it's good cuz i'm too thin(well dats exactly wad everyone tells me and i kinda agree) but the other side of me says it's bad cuz it means i have not been eating healthy.cuz i noe all the extra kg comes not from regular meals and healthy lifestyle but from pigging on junk~...arghz...

hmm...had tuition yesterday.quite a fruitful tuition cuz i had all my queries answered.the challenge is whether i'm able to remember wad i've been taught.haha.cuz although i may learn things fast,but i also tend to forget the previous stuffs.that's my weak point.

well i guess that's all for now.gota practice my maths already.cu zi have maths remedial on wed-fri 1pm to 4pm with miss ang.so i better come up with questions to ask miss ang.if not the rememdial will not be fruitful.oki~ c ya ~~

happy!

5th September 2004

hi all...new template here.nice?? hehe...so i guess u should be wondering y i'm so up early on a sunday...a holiday some more! haha...well the answer is i was up ate 3am to study.i went out with sandy and hui xin to study yesterday and sandy taught me poa,and all my doubts were cleared~ feel so great~

cell grp yesterday was good.the message was powerful and it motivates me to have a greater faith in God.

been feeling mighty happy dis day. =D i think i'm turning into a "studyholic"..i seem to find alot of pleasure and joy in studying these days.haha! motivation is really high now,so i better make use of it before i'm back to slacking mode again! but i dun think i wana get back to slacking mode anymore for now.cuz o levels are in 2 month's time.TWO MONTHS! that's really fast.

by the way all the dates from my previous entries are gone.i dono y.i guess it has something to do with the blog's template.maybe it's not done properly or something.but nvm.it's not really a big issue here. =D wad matters most is it looks great~!!

I AM A CHRISTIAN

hmm..a little something to all my friends out there..christians and non-chrisitans alike..plz do spend some time to read. =)


"I am a Christian" Message: Christianity Understood

The next time someone says............"I thought you were supposed to be a Christian," keep this
in mind:When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not shouting "I'm clean living!" I'm whispering, "I was lost; now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say "I am a Christian"... I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble, and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not tryingto be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak, and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed, and need God to clean my mess.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible; but God believes I am worth it.

When I say "I am a Christian"... I still feel the sting of pain, I have my share of heartaches, and so I call upon His name.
When I say "I am a Christian"... I'm not holier than thou. I'm just a simple sinner, who received God's good Grace, somehow.

Share this with somebody who already has this understanding, as reinforcement. But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means tobe a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others"can be dispelled.

holidays~

september holidays are here...but it's no holiday for me.gota study for prelims+o levels.argh.time is getting nearer and nearer to exams.gota really chiong all the way.cannot be complacent nor procrastinate anymore.

sch was kinda boring today.sometimes i would rather stay at home myself to study.i prefer it dis way.i guess most of u too right? sch's kinda waste of time.in class,teacher scold scold scold nag nag and make so many anouncements that alot of time that can be put for studying is wasted.at home.i wake up,eat and can start studying immediately.and i dun ahve to sing the national anthem too! national anthem is also another thing that takes up study time.agree agree?? hehe...

yesterday i went to search up an artist by the name of Salvador Dali.he's such a cool artist! his art works are more interesting to look at than other artists lyk pablo picasso or monet.i lyk Salvador Dali's surreal art work.really cool! very funny also.it can really make me laugh.it just shows how great he is cuz it's not easy to make ppl react to ur art pieaces emotionally.it takes alot of skill and talent.haha.

going to church later.lookng forward to it.i wana release all my stress to God.can't stand the days in school.my class is not a very condusive environment at all.so disruptive.can't concnetrate.home is the BEST!

ARGHZ~!!!

haiz...BEDOK NORTH MATHES PRELIM PAPER 2003 KILLS TO THE COOOOREE!!!!!! haiz...i have vomited alot of blood while trying to make sense of the questions...help~!

by the way,one super super good news....I HAVE FINISHED MY ART PREP WORK!! yiiipeee!!! lalalalalalalala...(happy tree friends theme song)... yup yup! so now i'm so so very free to study my other subjects instead of always spending time on art! woohoo!

haiz...exams are just ard the corner.i dun think i have the confidence to face it.just wish i live in a world where there is no exams or tests or wadever...guess the best place is none other than heaven....

OKM is such a bad discipline master.always misunderstanding me as one of the bad students.i mean lyk HELLOOOOO look at meeee!!!! do i look lyk i'm a bad student? well even if i do look lyk one,have i ever done anything bad so far? oh come on! just bcuz i hang ard with the ppl he dislikes,he takes me as one of them! hey my friends are not me and i'm not my friends ok! he better open his eyes BIGGER and LOOK AT ME CLOSELY before he starts accusing me again! pray that God will TAME HIS TONGUE so that he will start speaking graceful words and not harsh and insulting words! and pray that God will bless him so that he will be filled with a better sense of judgement,and better eyesight to distinguish between the good and the bad!!!!! can't stand him anymore!!!!